How did it turn out like this?

The first love note I wrote, in memory of you...

March 23rd, 2021- 

'My Dearest Isayah,

It feels as if it has been so long since I last saw your beautiful smile, or felt your warm embrace, or heard your sweet laughter. Oh, how I miss you, my best friend...my love. The grief that fills my heart is immeasurable. You were not just best friend, but my partner in crime, my soulmate, my world. I will always cherish and remember the days when we were just innocent middle school kids, we were unaware of the magic that was unfolding between us. Our journey began with a simple hello, but little did I know that you would become my world. From that moment on, our lives intertwined, and we became soulmates. We were always sharing secrets, dreams, and aspirations. I will forever hold the memories we created together right in my heart, like that beautiful moment that we shared our first kiss. This was all back when time seemed to stand still and nothing else mattered except for the love we felt for each other. The way our hands fit perfectly together, fingers interlocked, as if they were made to be that way. You were more than just a best friend, Isayah. You were my rock, and the one who made every day brighter. We shared a bond that went beyond words, you understood me like no one else ever could. You saw the beauty in me, even on my darkest days, and you loved me unconditionally. We had dreams of a future together, filled with laughter, love, and the little things that made life worth living. Our hearts were connected not only by our love for each other but also by our shared love for animals. I'll never forget how we used to spend hours at the shelter, playing with the sweet souls in need of a home. It was in those moments that I knew our love was something I had never expected to blossom. Isayah, I cannot help but cling onto the thought and the hope that one day, somehow, we will be reunited. The pain of losing you is unbearable, but the love we shared was far too beautiful to let go. I sincerely believe when I die, we will be together again. I would do anything in the world to feel your warmth once again. I would do anything in the world to continue to create new memories filled with love and happiness. Until that day comes, I will hold onto our memories and the love we shared, like a precious treasure. You have left a mark on my heart that I will never be able to forget, and I will forever carry you with me, my sweet Isayah.'