Letters to both my future and past selves

Future future update #3

You guessed it, its me again, its currently 2:31 am on January 28th, 2024

you'll be turning 20 very soon and that number is a little too serious for me. There were a lot more deaths that we had to go through this year, but I'll get to that later, let's start with the good.

I FINALLY have a job and guess what, it's at a doggy daycare!! It took me a long time to find a job but a little while after mahogany got one she helped me get this one.

I've gotten to do so many things this year, mostly because of mahogany, she's a shining light in my dull world. We went on a almost 5 day road trip to New York because her whole family moved there and I helped Mahogany and her family take her animals there. Mahogany left college and started a job also at a doggy daycare place. I've gotten to go to many festivals with her and I've met so many new people because of her. I'm so thankful to be called her friend.

We can start getting to the sad parts now. While in New York with Mahogany I found out that a K-pop idol I really admired passed away, it was revealed that he had died by suicide (which I just found out now and it hurts a little more) and I immediately broke down in tears and bawled. Then 3 months later before you went on a trip to Texas to cat sit (which was traumatizing by the way) you found out your grandpa in Brazil passed away, it didn't hit you as hard as grandma's death because you weren't as close to him as you were with her, there was also the whole thing in which you thought grandma died hating you for some reason (stupid ass) but you left to Texas a few day after that. NOW ABOUT TEXAS, it was hell, and I mean absolute hell, because 1. you still don't have your drivers license (dumbass) so you couldn't leave the house for a whole month. 2. ANTS we hate them now, absolutely despise them, your bag that you brought was filled to the brim with a whole colony of ants that all wanted the stupid honeybun that you kept in the pocket. Never again. You have a phobia of ants now.

Next, you finally went to England again for Your older brother's WEDDING!! I still can't believe we got to stay in a castle, but, the day before we went to the castle I fell down those stupid fucking English stairs and messed up my knee (how fuuuun). Then a few days after the wedding you and the fam when to the beach boardwalk and you had the worst migraine of your life and also only the 2nd migraine in your life (pussy).

You've met so many new people and have helped specifically one person with her amazing crochet business. You go to almost everyone of her popups with Mahogany as a chauffer (you stupid passenger princess) Both you and Mahogany have become great supporters and friends of hers. There are so many more things to tell you about the near future but ill leave that for future me.

So it was nice telling the story of my life at the moment but I'm gonna go to bed now.

End time 3:00 am