homo(phobic) | satzu |

t h r e e | N |

Is it a forbidden love? No.

Then why keeping secrets?

Sana hated homosexuality, her grandparents made her hate homosexuality. Her grandmother filled Sana's head with all sorts of nonsense about homosexuality leading to hell. Homosexuality is a sin. Or that homosexual people should hang. Sana was only 11 years old when she heard these things from her grandmother. She heard a lot of things, because at that time Sana's parents were very busy with work, so Sana spent most of her life with her grandparents.

It scared Sana, she didn't wanted to go to hell, so she decided to hate all the homosexual people. Until the age of 14, she was disgusted by gay people. Then when she entered high school, she became popular. It took 1 month and everyone knew her name. Boys slipped a bunch of letters into her locker, into her notebooks when she wasn't paying attention, into her desk, but none of them warmed his heart. Just kidding. One certainly warmed her heart. The only problem was that it was written by a girl and then she realized that she would go to hell and rot there, even though a girl had entered her heart.

It didn't say 'you're beautiful, let's go on a date" or something like that.

It said: When I saw you, I didn't even need time to think, to decide that I want to give YOU my heart and body. I like the way you raise your hand in class when you know the right answer. I love the way you pout your lips.... oh those lips Sana. They are perfect. Your face? Perfect. Your body? Perfect... and desirable Sana, very much. I love the way you smile at your new friends, I know you consider them true friends. You know what else I loved? The way you smiled at me when it was your turn to introduce yourself. - Chou Tzuyu.

This was the most stupidly worded love letter that Sana had read, but it was still the most wonderful to read. She was already grinning after the first 2 sentences, and then that grin was wiped off her face when she saw who wrote it.

After this realization, she started bullying kids who were homosexual, while being more popular.

She bullied Tzuyu, but the younger didn't care about it. She already gave Sana her heart. She doesn't want to get her heart back, she wants to give Sana her body too. As she said in the letter. So every Monday and Wednesday she left a notes on her locker instead of a letter. Everyone knew Tzuyu, everyone saw her, but no one knew she was the one leaving notes on her future lover's locker.. Only the two of them knew. The one who left it there. And the one who got it.

Then Sana started to call Tzuyu a fag. At first it hurt Tzuyu and she thought that she should give up the fight for Sana and their non-existent love.

But luckily for both of them, Tzuyu received a notification on her phone one night, which immediately dispelled the thought of giving up the fight for Sana. Sana liked Tzuyu's oldest post on Instagram. Tzuyu knew it was a sign because Sana took the fatigue and rolled her down to the bottom of her page. Sana tried to signal to Tzuyu that it was time to follow Sana, as Sana posted in her story a bunch of notes and messages that Tzuyu left for her.

Tzuyu didn't follow her.

And this made Sana slap herself.

And only this happened in 3 months.

And Tzuyu stopped leaving notes for Sana. She became brave and she texted her.

At night.

thinkaboutzu
i hope you'll like it Sana. have a sweet dream.

Spoiler: Sana was sleeping. She only saw the text when she woke up. She scolded herself for muting her phone once in a month.

She didn't understand what was the text saying.

That morning when Sana and now her bestfriends, Mina and Momo walked together to Sana's locker, they weren't excepting the next.

When she opened the her locker her eyes went wide, as the others. A bouquet of white roses, next to them chocholate, with a little note 'red roses are basic, and you give me white roses vibe. - you know who'

Sana told her parents that she got it from one of her best boyfriends because he bought flowers for every girl friend. She doesn't know any boys besides Bang Chan who is gay.

While laying on her bad, facing with the ceiling Sana admitted.

She fell in love with Tzuyu. And they didn't even talk yet. This is what she has to change. This is the time when she has to make a move.

m.by___sana
hi Tzuyu, i'm so thankful.

thinkaboutzu
hi Belle, did you like it? :D

m.by__sana
of course i did, the roses are so beautiful. and you were right, i'm a white rose person.

thinkaboutzu
you know what else is beautiful?

m.by___sana
?

thinkaboutzu
you. Sana you're beautiful.

And this is where Sana was going to kill herself if she can't meet her right now.

m.by__sana
meet me. please. *address*

They met at a park. It was around 8:00 p.m., Sana pleaded with her parents with the excuse that one of her friends was crying a lot and was in the park, and she needed to comfort her.

They are a few meters apart, no one waved to anyone, they just stared at each other and then Tzuyu spread her arms. This made Sana smile and she ran to the tall one and fell into her arms.

After a few seconds, their hearts began to beat in the same way, picking up each other's rhythm, as much as their breaths.

"I never missed someone like this." Sana says into Tzuyu's neck, while the latters kissed the small one's head.

"Same." Tzuyu says shortly. She scolded herself for being 'cold', she was about to have a panic attack if she ever act cold again with Sana.

She was overthinking.

This is perfect for Sana.

"I have to sneeze." Sana says playfully and the other chuckled, and let go of her.

_______

They were in a relationship, but her mom caugh her daughter with Tzuyu. Not kissing, not holding hands, but Tzuyu dropping her off.

Her mom forbade Sana to be friends with Tzuyu. Saying that she knows her family well and that Tzuyu's father once beat up a doctor and was in prison for a while. But of course, they got him out with money. And her mom said she didn't want Tzuyu to beat her daughter. She said that girl is not complete.

No, just Tzuyu and her father are bipolar.

Sana was afraid of her mother that anything would come out about her and Tzuyu, so she did not meet Tzuyu or keep in touch with her.

She dragged Sana into the bathroom in school, ask her what's her problem. And Sana told her.

"That's- that's not fair." Tzuyu knocked the soup off the tap.

"I'm afraid that anything will be revealed, okay?"

"Why would that happen? It will only be revealed if you tell someone, and that someone continues to tell everyone." she took two steps to her everything. "You don't have to tell anyone, you know. I'm not mad about it. I love you and will be in love with you even if no one knows about us Sana." she cupped her face. "Of course, I want a few people to get the idea that you are mine, but we have to accept the situation and wait, give the situation time." they touched their forehead together. "But please don't leave Sana, I can't live without you."

Sana didn't respond, instead she smiled to herself.

"Can you do that for me?" Tzuyu whispers to her, then open her eyes, focusing on the other's lips.

Sana's respond is a kiss. I can do that my love.