Mine || Hyunlix

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Hyunjin's pov

Ugh.. Why's so complicated??
Can someone get this boy out of my mind?

This freckled boy.. this beautiful boy.. this boy who made me feel something.. weird.. this boy that's literally a angel.. this boy who sat on my lap and made my heart go crazy-

Pathetic, I'm pathetic

I run a hand through my hair

He's also pathetic

Why am I not dead yet? Hm? Hm?

I sigh then got up from the ground, I look at the river once more

Than I take my bag and walk over to my house..

I wonder where he's at..-
No. I don't.
Ugh, I'm so tired I can't think straight.

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I throw my bag in the corner of the room and go straight to the bathroom

Gosh I'm tired, I then undress myself, but oh wth

Me: My scars are faiding..?

I literally just at them

Why,. Why do I feel proud?!

No! I need new ones

But there's.. there's this thing stoping me.

I hate it.

I don't have a reason to live, I hate everyone and everything...

I run a hand through my hair

Me: Pfft

I just get into the shower and well duh, showering and thinking.. but showering.

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I throw myself on the bed and look at the ceiling

Me: M..

Aaand on the phone I go

Directly on insta.. ahem, whaching something important.

Yeah.. important...

If he's important-

I close my phone, pf, that short boy

Me: I hate him, I don't like his precense at all..

Pf

I scoff then closed my eyes

Are you for real life?? Why do I have to see with my eyes closed??

Me: And people say you see black with eyes closed...

Ugh..

Why..?

"Do you really deserve to die?"

Why? Why asking me that? 

I wasn't trying to kill myself at that moment...

Tsk.. Why?

He sat on my lap.. who does that?..
But.. it wasn't weird... I liked it.. but.. why?

Why?

Why was my answer confusing him??

If he was confused, what about me??

Who in this world asks "Do you even deserve to die?"

Ugh, yes, I do...

Do I?

Me: This is frustrating..

I say as my thoughts are just running through my mind

Me: Whatever

I sigh then tried to fall asleep, of course

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I literally can't fall asleep , it's around 3 am

Ugh.. why?

I sit on the bed, the only source of light right now is the moon and street lights getting through the curtains

I yawn and I stretch my arms, then get up and walk into the bathroom

M, I run a hand through my hair and I put my hair in a low bun , not exactly a bun, cus, yeah, I don't have that kind of long hair, m, but haha, two strings of hair of course get out of the bun and 'conture' my face

Mm..

I wonder how would it feel to have him in my arms-

No, I don't wonder shits like that, m-m

I actually wonder what's like after you die,but oh well

I yawn once again then after awhile, I went back onto the bed

I'm so sleepy,I can't have my eyes opened but I can't fall asleep either.

(A/N same 😭😈)

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Somebody's pov

Felix is lying on Jisung's bed actually, besides Ji

Jisung has already been asleep for awhile

It didn't bothered Felix, he didn't wanted to respond to any questions... Not yet

He was in some of Jisung's comfy pijamas, something with a cow pattern, it is cute, but also comfy and Felix actually liked it.

The night lights Han has in his room, lighted it, so if someone were to walk in now, they'd see two cute sunshines, one asleep and one just thinking

Thinking about a lot actually, random and not so random thoughts

After a moment he was literally fighting with himself about going to sleep or not

Oh.. But when he remembered the words ge heard..

When he remembered what he should do..

When he remembered..that there's not even a reason

He felt extremely bad, how can he do something like that to.. Hyunjin?

No. He didn't liked him. He just felt.. simpathy

Felix, never thought about Hyunjin but just in the way.. Does he deserves that?

Hyunjin..
Hyunjin was.. quiet, but not in a way that could make him any less gorgeous.

His expensive features, were incredible everytime .
He looked like a Greek god.
Always looking so good, specially when wind is making his voluminous hair slicking back, or when he was sweating from all the sport

Even tho, to be honest, Felix had realised that he never saw Hyunjin smile

Or.. did he?

Maybe he did and couldn't remember... It doesn't matter anyway..

It really doesn't matter.. and Felix doesn't even care.. it's an insignificant fact..
Yep, a think that didn't even matter.

Aaannd like that,Felix started remembering everything and anything he ever said or did with Hyunjin.

There was nothing special, but it was, at the same time

Felix cleared his thoughts then got on his side and close his eyes, to be brought into a lovely dreaming world.. or just a hell of a nightmare.

But good thing he's tired, he probably won't even feel this night, he'll just pass out, literally

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Hiii gayyss:3

Here's a little update, yeah, nothing interesting, yet.. I know, I know

Sorry, I was mean for that, but I literally had a LOT to do today, so yeah

Hope you likeee iiitt aaaannndddd

I LOVEEE Y'ALL<33