In love with a Riddle || Y/N x Mattheo Riddle

Well shiiiiiittt

TW: mention of eating disorder

We are sitting down waiting for our food to be brought to the table. Mattheo is talking about what he does for fun and asks questions every now and then. I start to zone out as I realize that the food will be here soon... I have to eat or he will question it. "Y/n??" I snap out of my thought. "Hm?" I say looking back at Mattheo. "You okay?" I nod softly and the food comes out. I just got a salad, and I can just throw it up afterwards. It's fine. I'll be fine... or so I thought.

"Aren't you going you eat?" Mattheo said after eating half his plate of food. "Yeah, just... not too hungry." Mattheo looks concerned and I try to hide it. I blink back tears as I take a small bite of the food. Mattheo goes back to eating and I immediately take a drink of my water after swallowing. I need to throw this up. Now. I excuse myself to the bathroom and I lock myself in the stall. I shove two of my fingers down my throat and I throw up. God it felt amazing. I feel guilty, but it had to be done. I can't gain weight.

I walk back out and I look at Mattheo. "I think I'm sick, I just threw up. Can we go home?" I was lying... sort of. "Are you okay?" He asks concerned. "Yeah, just... tired" he nods and pays for the food and we drive back home. I get home and I go shower. After my shower I throw up again to be sure I got all of it. I realize the door is cracked and I open it and see Mattheo standing there. Shocked. "Were you..." a pause. "Were you making yourself throw up??"