In love with a Riddle || Y/N x Mattheo Riddle

Not again...

I want to kiss him...
But I can't fall in love...
Not again...

I look away...
I dont want to hurt him...
Not again...

*thinking of 3 years ago* Laughing. Smiling. Hugging. Playing. Life was so good with him... life was so good with Blaise. I loved him. I wanted to be with him forever. I was too blind to see that he liked me... too blind to see that Mattheo loved me. He loved me more than Blaise did.  I fucking hate it. I fucking hate that every day he would tell me how much he loved me... but he didn't actually. Blaise hurt me. Blaise broke me. He played me. He didn't care about me.

Mattheo looked at me like I looked at Blaise. In love. I yelled at him when he tried to kiss me. "ew no. You're like my brother!" The pain in his eyes broke me. I have never seen anything more heartbreaking. "But I love you, y/n..." is how he responds. I shake my head and look disgusted. I feel bad now. It hurts me to hurt him. I want to know what he's thinking. Does he still hate me? Does he even remember that day... dancing in the rain.

AN: THANK YOU GUYS SM FOR 7.23K READS!!!!!! This means so much to me! Sorry I went a while without an update. I've been dealing with mental health issues, but I'm feeling so much better now. LOVE YOU ALL <3