'My Dearest Love'

'Chapter One'

"I promise you this , I'll always look out for you"

- Sparks , Coldplay ☆
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"I like you" was what you said before disaster struck upon us but to be honest disaster has already appeared way before this moment. It was waiting for a chance to strike and destroy.

I wish I could've been braver , instead of starring back at you with a clueless shocked face. I could've and would've pulled you in without any hesitation , whispering countless 'yes' to you.

In the end , before I could even react , you jumped on me , hugging me tight like you were about to loose me as the light speeds in on us. Even then I somehow didn't feel safe at all , not when I wasn't the one to protect you first.

Right there and then , I never knew our first hug would be so tragic , bloody and out of trying to save me.

Beep. Beep. Beep.

There lays zhang ling yi on a luxurious bed in a hospital room unconscious with lips that are pale and chapped , along with scars that are barley healed on his notable face. With a good looking face shape and sharp jaw , high nose bridge , eyes that are mesmerising to see.

The once unconsious ling yi starts to slowly open his eyes , squinting trying to fully open them.

"An zai-?" Ling yi muttered as he looked around the unfamiliar hospital room. His awakening after the incident , happened to alert the nurses outside the room which then led the two nurses in the room.

"Are you okay sir? How are you currently feeling?" One of the nurses asked while the other prepares to write down the reply of ling yi.

Ling yi couldn't help but stare at them with his eyebrow frowning , leaning in closer.

"Are you okay?" The nurse continued to ask him.

Zhang ling yi slowly starts to realise , evrything around him was silent. His facial expression hardened with fear as he slowly placed his palm on his neck , pushing out his voice to make sure of something.

"aa-" he stutters shortly. Ling yi widened his eyes as his breath started growing heavier.

"Aaaaaa-" he tried once again , eyes tearing up knowing.

He couldn't hear anything.

"AAAAAAA-" ling yi screams , grabbing his hair in frustration , eyes darting left and right frantically , unable to control this emotion he's feeling. Denial.

The two nurses looked at him worriedly , trying to calm him down. One of them tried to hold him still , only to be pushed away harshly by him.

Ling yi reaches out to the nearest table , next to the lavish bed and grabs the TV remote on top of it. Ling yi then starts aggressively increasing the volume on the big screen television , hoping he'll be able to hear even the slightest bit. In the end it was all for nothing.

In shock , the remote drops onto the ground as he unconsciously takes three steps back. His breathing paced faster , feeling unstable , shocked. He knew he lost his hearing.

With his legs gone soft , Ling yi drops to the ground , grabbing onto his hair once again , panting in disbelief. Unknowing what to do , the two nurses urgently called the doctor , hoping this would help the situation.

"Why why why why why" ling yi thought tearing up. "Why me" was the only question he could ask in thought , but no one could ever awnser why. A flash of memory hits him as he remembers the accident.

An zai. Where is she? How is she doing? Is she alive? Thought of him being deaf , unable to hear was suddenly nothing. What matters now was her. Always her.

Not long after the break down , someone burst into the room. "What's going on?" The doctor asked the two nervous nurses standing in the corner.

"Mr zhang started screaming and...." the nurse said quickly in a breath and hesitated , looking over at the other nurse wondering if she should continue. "And?" The doctor said sternly , looking at the nurse.

Without any excuse to give , she closed her eyes and took a deep breath ." i think Mr zhang is unable to hear..."

The doctor folded his brows , looking at ling yi who's currently curled up like a small kid on the ground like he is afraid of something. The doctor walks toward him and bends to his level , trying to check his ears.

Once the doctor finished checking , He stands back up with a sigh escaping his mouth. "He has a ruptured eardrum, damage to the tiny bones within the middle ear, damage to the structures within the inner ear as well." He turns to look at the nurses who are clueless upon hearing the cause , causing him another sigh to escape. "That means he's deaf and he's uncurable-"

"UNCURABLE?!" A loud pitched voice appears behind the three standing infornt of the door. There stood a middle aged woman , dressed in a modest yet classical two piece.

"I'm sorry ma'am, but this is all we could've done." The doctor pinches the bridge of his nose with a sigh , followed with a apologetic bow.

Being able to do nothing in the current situation , the middle aged woman could just rush towards her poor son.

She holds her sons hand , staring intently at it , tracing the scars on his delicate pale hands. While she turned around , she blurted "Is he unable to continue playing the piano..."

The doctor just stood there silently , giving back a small nod indicating its true. Zhang ling yi slowly raises his head with teary red eyes glancing back at his mom , hair all ruffled and messed up from his breakdown.

Mustering up all his courage and energy left in him , he only could mouth out someone's name.

'An Zai?...'

Zhang ling yi's teary eyes were met with his moms stern expression as he continues tracing his mother's eyes hoping for an explanation.

"I'm bringing him back home , erase all information about my son not being able to hear." The lady said grabbing her sons hand tightly causing him to whine in pain. Ling yi couldn't help but push his moms hand away , still waiting for an awnser from her.

"Stand up" the lady said in a stern voice and expressionless face , facing away from her son. Ling yi still on the ground helpless , not being able to hear a single word his mom was saying could only express a face full of confusion.

"I said stand up!" The lady faces her son looking from above. "You are not deaf , I do not allow my only son to be a crippling who can't hear." Her eyes glared at her only son , almost as if shooting arrows at him.

Not being to hear anything nor speak up for himself , the helpless Ling yi could only just stare back at his mom from the ground looking up. Tears starts to overflow dripping down one by one on his face uncontrobly.

"Hah- You are really worthless" the mom spat under her breath , staring at ling yi with much hatred and disappointment. Ling yi could only watch his mom turn on him while walking out the door as he tries to reach out , mutter countless 'please stay , I was wrong' again and again and again under his breath.

"My driver will send him home , make sure none of this gets out , if it does , you know what'll happend." The lady warned the doctor before walking out the door.

<author's note>
Hi guys! I'm writing this book for fun so please do pardon my small mistakes or terrible writing. Peace out.