fucked up

im also just a girl

ella's pov -

it's finally a weekend .my dad is going in on a date tonight i heard of some party that i might go to so im not bored .

i got up and looked over at my alarm .

11:13

i groaned .i got up and took a shower and just put sweatpants and a tshirt on .

when i came downstairs ,my dad was sat at the counter eating cereal -there was also one next to him .

"hey dad "i yawned .

"hey babe ,you slept in late "he said as i sat next to him .

"studying "i lied through my teeth .i spelt my night sweating and dreaming about my mom and then soothing myself with a cigarette.

"thanks for the cereal "i said taking a scoop.

"no problem "he replied .

"so are you excited for your date tonight ?"i asked and i saw him smirk .

"a little "he said and i giggled .

"are you doing anything tonight?"he asked and i took a sip of my water .

"i think i might go to this party ,i don't know though "i mumbled .

"you should go !you don't wanna be stuck here all night "he said and i nodded .

"yeah ..i'll go "i smiled .

"be careful "he said and kissed the top of my head .

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it was now 8:00 .my dad had already left so i started to get ready .i braided my hair and put a dress on ,also makeup .before i left ,i smoked just a little weed and went on instagram.

then i hopped on my bike and off it go .

when i got to the party ,it was a lot bigger than i thought .i left my bike in a bush somewhere and went inside the bustling house .there was music blasting and drinks ,people i didn't know .

but after a while i went into the room where i knew i could settle in .there was a bong and vodka .

i went inside and sat on the couch next to this guy .he was good looking -maybe older than me ,possibly 16 .

i started actually having a great time .i was high and drunk and some good music was on .i started talking to that guy next to me for a bit .

"so why are you here ?aren't you travis kelces daughter .im sure he's not happy about his little girl getting up to this "he said .

"he's happy as can be " i smiled .

"and i'm not a little girl "i added .

"you seem like one "he snarked .

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i don't even know how it happened .but we were kissing .i had never kissed anyone before and i was wasting it on this creepy stoner .my senses finally came to me when his hand was coming under my skirt and i broke the kiss .

suddenly everything was blurry .everything around me just wasn't registering .the music was now too loud -blaring even .i hardly moved when that guy that was kissing me was bleeding on the floor .i barely flinched when i was picked up and brought to a bathroom .but when i threw up continuously in a toilet seat -everything was now clear .

oscar was behind me holding back my hair when i had finished .

"ella ,i'm all here for a good time but -what the fuck did you do ?!"he asked .

i instantly started crying and he held me in that bathroom floor for a while .

"i miss my mom so much"i wailed .

"i know ell "he whispered .

after a while ,i called my dad . 

he didn't answer .

i called again .

no answer .

oscar was killed by his mom and had to go home .he said to call him when i get back .

i stumbled out the party door and called my dad again .drunk ,high and crying.

when i called the third time it finally picked up .

"hey erm .your dad went to to the bathroom and i didn't want to be invasive by answering his calls but it seems urgent ." a female voice came through .an oddly recognisable one .

"i need my dad "i sniffled down the phone .

"oh honey ...we can come and get you right now .whats happened ?"the comforting voice spoke .

"i fucked up ,so bad "my cries became heavier .

"send the address ."she said .

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i carried on throwing up and crying until i saw my dads car pull up and a very angry dad who slammed the door .

"ell ,what the fuck is this ?"he muttered and he came to the curb and picked me up .

i cried so hard i could barely breath .he put me down in the back seat and i curled into a ball and cried .

i slowly opened my eyes and looked next to me when a warm hand was on my arm .

is that fucking taylor swift ?

"i'm sorry hes mad "she whispered.

"he should be "i sniffled .

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when we got back my dad looked at me coldly .

"upstairs "he said and i went up without a word .

i ripped off that fucking dress and put on a tracksuit that swallowed me whole and got into bed crying .

soon after , a light creeped in and a tall,thin figure came in and sat on the end of my bed .

"look i know we just met ...but your a kid .you make mistakes and i know your dads mad but he will get over it "she whispered.

i sat up and wiped my face .

"why is taylor swift in my room right now "i said.

"so your dad didnt tell you then "she sighed .

"no.i would definitely remember that "i said and she chuckled .

"just go to sleep and you guys can talk tomorrow "she smiled and i nodded lying back down .

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taylor's pov -

i went back downstairs to look for travis .i do feel for that girl .i love my mom more than anyone in the world .i can't  imagine my life without her ,and definitely not at that age .she was obviously high ,and drunk .i mean i can't relate for that but i understand her .

travis was pacing the kitchen .

"she's going to sleep "i said and he rubbed his eyes .

"what the fuck was she thinking !"he groaned and i stayed silent looking down .

"i mean th-that girl is my little girl .s-she's not like that .if her mother saw her like that s-shed have my throat "he stumbled and ended up crying .

i went over and hugged him and he cried in the top of my head .

"you guys can talk it out tommorow.your a great dad ,but that's a very heartbroken girl .and you can't control that ."i whispered.

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