fucked up

your cool

ella's pov -

pounding ,my head throbbed as i tried to open my eyes .wiggling my toes and rubbing my eyes with the pillow i finally sat up ,looking out the window .

1:16

the clock read .i rubbed my eyes once again and stumbled to my feet going into my sock drawer and lighting one up .i sat on my window ledge ,looking at the hot new day before me .

watching cars pass by ,trees sway in the slight breeze .it all came back .party.touched .oscar .dad.taylor swift ?

putting the end of my cigarette out of the outside of the wall ,i hopped up and looked in the mirror .

i was wearing baggy boxer shorts and a bra .my dads gonna be at practice by now .i brushed my hair and washed my face ,also brushed my teeth before putting some fluffy socks on and going downstairs.

as i approached the kitchen ,i smelt something .something exquisite .i slowly approached ,maybe my dad skipped out on practice to scream at me again .maybe he's disappointed to the point he won't even talk to me .

as i peeked my blonde head around to corner i gasped .obviously loudly because my suspicious have been confirmed .

taylor fucking swift turned around from the pan she was cooking at and put her hand over her heart ,exhaling as a sign of relief .

"hello ella "she uttered smiling sweetly .

she was gorgeous.as was her voice -even when just talking .

"hey ..taylor "i croacked out .

"erm ..would you like to sit down .i make you something "she said putting a plate of scrambled eggs and toast down .

"wow ..you really didn't have to do this "i hesitated as i sat down .

"no ,no .i like cooking anyway "she said as she put down a glass of orange juice .

"well thank you "i said gratefully.

as i began to eat ,i could see her looking up at me once in a while ,waiting for me to finish .she had something to say .

as i washed the crust off my plate ,putting it just the dishwasher ,i saw taylor take a seat next to the one i was sat in .

i went back to mine to finish the rest of my orange juice when she turned to me .

"im sorry "she said with an upside down smile .

"for what !?the breakfast was beautiful "i said confused .

"no .i mean for us meeting like that "she said and i tensed up .

"well that one is my fault .not yours "i sighed .

"we were all teenagers once "she smirked at  me ,i giggled .

"what ?taylor swift was a little party animal "i raised an eyebrow .

"noooo i wasent i mean i just understand that you want to do the things you want when your a teenager "she laughed .

"yeah .."i hesitated .the reason i acted the way i did was just because i wanted to .but ..it was also because i wanted my mom to almost ..i don't even know .i know she's disappointed in me too ,maybe even more than my dad is .

"hey what's wrong ?you can talk to me you know "she said gently putting her hand over mine .

a small tear tricked down my smooth skin .

"you can cry"she whispered.

i let a few more start tears cascade down my pale skin before talking .

"i just ..i miss my mom so much and i-i know that i act like im okay but im really not .i don't want my dad to think he's doing a bad job because he's not .i just miss my mommy "i said letting many tears fall .

she wrapped her arms around me witout speaking and rubbed my back whilst i cried in her shoulder .

after around 5 minutes ,i pulled ny head away from her shoulder and she tucked my hair behind my ear .

"why don't you go and have a shower to relax and then we can talk more ?"she said softy and i agreed .

as i was about to go up the stairs and turned around .

"hey taylor "she whipped her head around .

"your cool "i smiled slightly and joy filled her eyes .
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