ʟᴏꜱᴛ. (Homelander x reader)

Chapter 5

"Okay?" You reply. He cannot find out who you are, not before you get your revenge, not before you can tell him yourself.

"It's weird, I've never heard of duplicates before. But you couldn't possibly be-" he stops and turns to face you. "Take off your mask."

"I'm afraid I can do that sir."

He stands up and most quickly towards you, putting his hand on your mask. You feel his strength against you.

"Homelander we need the room please" Ashley walks in with A-train.

He rolls his eyes and lets you go, leaving the room in a fuss.
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A-train apologies to Hughie for killing his girlfriend, which isn't a real apology because he didn't do that of course. He visually panics and runs to the bathroom. When he comes back you can see him figeting under the desk. A few moments go by, and you're left alone in the room. You see Starlight's chair move a little bit. Your eyes turn red. And Translucents messing around the table naked.

"Under Starlight's seat."

"How... there it is!" He grabs a bug from under the table. "Stop doing that" you do, and he goes back to being invisible.

"Don't do anything dumb Translucent."

"He was trying to spy on us, I want to know why."

"Fine. All I know is he works at Bryman audio-visual."

"Thank you, don't tell anyone about this yet until I get back."

"Sure." You don't really plan on keeping that a secret, but you won't say anything until he comes back.

You hear the door close, and you know your alone. You military walk out of the room and head to the elevator. When the elevator door opens you see Homelander standing, waiting for you.

"What floor?" You ignore him and press the button to your designated room. He proceeds to press all of the buttons. You don't say anything just stand still and hold your breath. You keep your heartbeat down.

After a few minutes he pushes you against the wall of the elevator. Putting his hand over your mask.

"Who are you?" He gets close to your face.

"Get off." He squeezes tighter.

"Who. are. You." He says slowly lifting up your mask a little, your mouth is exposed. You use your ghost ability, and he falls through you and hits the wall. You step behind him. "That's a neat little trick." His eyes turn red and he's facing right at you.

He's smiling, how long does it take for this elevator to fucking open. Your eyes turn red, and they can be seen through the mask. His eyes go back to normal. You stare at him.

"Did... did you just-" he blinks for a minute, no longer feeling the heat on his face.

"Sure did. Do you want to calm down or does this have to get ugly." You stand your ground, still staring.

"You little-" he steps forward. You use your mimic, and your eyes turn a different kind of red. You don't know how well your eyes are going to withstand it but here goes something.

"Stand back Homelander."

The elevator door dings. Floor 99.

"I'll be seeing you Crimson" he steps out and walks down the hallway.

The elevator door closes, and you fall to the floor, taking off your mask to breathe. "Holy shit". You stood up to Homelander. But why? Why do you have this aching feeling of regret, like you hurt someone you care about. You've been trained not to care about anything, so why do you care now. You still don't know if he said anything or not, you still don't know how much you want to know. You stand up and take a deep breath putting your mask back on. You walk out and quickly walk to your room. When you get inside you throw your mask on the bed and scream into your pillow. Why do you care so much about someone who cares so little? You think about the ledge, and then the gala, there the only two things you can remember. You barely remember Becca, you remember Homelander far too well. You know you hate this place, but you're stuck, with zero chance of escape. You flop on your bed and lay awake all night; sleep isn't necessary for you to do your job anymore. They trained you for that.

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You check the time, 4:30 AM, you get up and take a shower. Pulling your suit back over your head and equipping your mask. You walk to the elevator, running into Starlight.

"Oh, hi, You're Crimson right?" She asks looking at you with bug eyes. You nod.

"I haven't heard much about you but I'm excited to be working with you." she reaches her hand out to shake yours.

"Pleasure, don't get too excited this place is a nightmare" you shake her hand and walk out of the elevator. You can feel her staring at you.

You walk into the conference room to see Homelander. You're both early.

"Have you seen Translucent?" He asks.

"No, nobody really SEES him" you reply.

"I'm tired of the lies." he pauses for a minute. "y/n."

You freeze. What did he just call you? 

"H-how..."

"i got the information i needed, one way or another." He steps towards you.

The rest of the team walks in. The meeting goes on but you can feel the tension, your heart wanting to jump out of your chest and kill him right here right now. But you don't. You sit and listen and wait for whatever come after.

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