GODDDDD FFFFFFUCKING DAMMITTTTTTT FUCKKKKKK FUCK FUCK FUCKFCUKFXUKFUCK FUCK
life is so funny holy shit i love my life no complaints here teeheehee nope not me. not at all. nothing has ever gone wrong in my life. ever. HHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA it sso funny dude. SOOO funny.
hi.
i don't think anyone really reads this so i'll say it.
let's say, hypothetically of course, the feelings didn't go away. just hypothetically. let's just pretend that's how it is. because my brain and the fucked up feelings it gives me would never do something like that. right. right?
okay so let's say im not pretending anymore and the feelings are still here and holy shit im an IDIOT.
I DONT WANT THE FEELINGS GODDAMMIT I JUST WANT TO FEEL NORMAL AROUND THEM BUT NO MATTER WHAT THERE'S ALWAYS SOMETHING THERE. no matter how much i tell myself i don't feel that way anymore, im over it, there's always something there.
jesus christ man.
YOU ARE READING
stupid thoughts
AcakCONTENT WARNING for topics like mental health, suicidal thoughts, rape, sexuality, and whatever else i feel like. don't read this. i started this in 7th grade when i was crushing on a friend. now i just vent here.
