Repeated Mistakes

DANTE'S POV

Sarah Carter is sitting in her Mazda right in front of me, with my kids on her backseats. Sarah. Carter. Is. With. My. Kids. And it's like I'm losing the fucking ability to allow oxygen into my lungs, I pinch my arm to make sure it's not a dream, and I realize this time it's happening, what the fuck? She turns over her shoulder to look at my kids as she smiles widely, fuck that smile. The smile that could make me melt in half a second.

"Say bye to daddy, kids. We are leaving."

The electric sparks go through my body as those words echo in my ears, did I hear correctly? God, she seemed oblivious to how her words sounded, but I noticed them. And my daughter looked so happy to leave with her, and my son, well he was sleeping.

After some seconds they left.

Again, my kids left with Sarah Carter, the same Sarah Carter that I hadn't been able to forget for more than 4 years. The same one that doesn't seem to notice how she can turn my whole world around with a smile and 8 words from her, and made my heart skip a beat. I sound like a fucking teenager, but she always made me feel like that. And now? It's almost as if... No, I can't go there.

It was too much to accept her taking care of my kids, but with my mom being out of the country and my daughter hating on the girlfriend of my best friend I was cornered, I hated being a lousy parent by not being able to take care of them.

I hate how corporations work, the higher you get, the more things they ask from you, my boss asked me to take a client to dinner, and after my promotion, it wasn't exactly like I could say no. So, I needed someone to stay with the kids, usually, I organize my schedule to be able to watch them or have my meetings when they are at daycare and school, but this was last minute, so I was left with asking Trevor, my best friend, I trusted him but my kids are too clingy, and now I know my kid is not the biggest fan of his girlfriend. And if I had to trust anyone with my kids it's comforting for it to be Sarah.

God, she looked so beautifully breathtaking, the moment I turned around and met her hazel eyes it was as if oxygen was taken out of me. Like if all the world stopped for her. She hadn't aged a day, she looked so beautiful and hot. I forgot how much power she had over me. Her simple smile was making my whole body react to her, my breath was short, my hands sweaty, and a hot sensation running from my chest to the rest of me. I knew I couldn't stay there for much time.

But then, Sophie. God, that kid has a way of getting me in some situations, I didn't even know she and Sarah continued to see each other, Sophie had been a shy and reserved kid, but with Sarah, her eyes lit up as they hadn't in weeks, she hugged her with such trust and care, I missed my joyous daughter so much, and it made my heart full when she had her wide smile begging me to go with Sarah. And, of course, I trust her. But why would she help me? I broke up with her. I broke her heart. I know she has such a warm heart, and it always worried me how forgiving she was.

Unlocking the car, I sit and drive back to my house, and decide to call the person who can explain how long Sophie has been seeing Sarah.

-Dante, is everything okay? - She asks worried.

I chuckle. -Something must be wrong for me to call you, mom?

-Usually - She answers with irony, I don't need to see her to know she is rolling her eyes at my words -How are my babies?

-They are okay.

-And you?

-I am too. But I'm curious about something...- I say making a left turn.

-Please, I'm all ears.

-I ran into Sarah at the store today - I say trying to sound as indifferent as I can.