I've been through A LOT of depression. As I'm writing this I'm depressed. I over think things. Recently I lost my best guy friend and it still hurts thinking about it I don't know how I'll face him at school. My best friend in the whole world is being distant she never wants to hang out anymore. I'm not going to lie I have cut. My mom found out and she took my blade. I asked if we could have a girls day 2 days ago I didn't include that I was very depressed and still am and all she said was ask your father and that hurt me and my mom use to be so close and all of a sudden she gets a boyfriend and she doesn't have time for her only daughter that wants to die. When she found out I was cutting she said I can't bury my own daughter. Who's going to be my maid of honor at my wedding? Well I don't know. I don't want people to notice I'm depressed. Silence is a cry for help. Today I didn't eat at all, I stayed in my room all day and cried and wouldn't leave unless I had to pee. I'm depressed very depressed but I put on a fake smile and go through life. I just want someone to be afraid of losing me. Right now I'm balling my eyes out. I want to die so bad but I don't want my friends and family to feel as bad as I did. I help and save people when there depressed but I can't even save and help myself.
