QT: Against My Will (Volume 2)

4.22 - Fix Her Poor Pole - Dangerous Angels

Ru Quan couldn't lie to Bing Shi. "I had a very strong one-sided connection with her. I thought she was my soulmate until things got tainted between us with lies and hurt..."

Better to clear things up, he patiently explained his circumstances.

"What?! You killed her?!" Bing Shi opened her eyes wide; she created some distance between them, teasingly, "It answers why I died because of you... two times in a row."

After knowing that killing had no psychological impact on Ziek, she let it go. In war, it was kill or get killed. Her view on things changed. It was not like she was any better, she killed zombies and ordered soldiers to torture criminals. She had them healed afterward though. Enough excuses. This information truly surprised her. She didn't deny the fact that she got goosebumps, it was like hearing about a third Zhao Rong.

"I'm sorry, don't be afraid of me, please," Ru Quan squeezed Bing Shi dearly to his chest. A huge burden clogged his heart, "I'm sorry, I still helped her. I want her to be happy, not with me, but with someone else. I want to move on, but I don't know why, when I see her suffering, I'm unable to ignore it."

His burden slowly transferred to Bing Shi. She began to feel like a dumpster, where everyone was throwing their problems at her, thinking that she'd solve everything, "..."

'So they failed to meet each other's needs. I'm not saying he or she is at fault, just being realistic about what happened and why.'

'I never realized how hope is like a double-edged sword. You endure, you keep on going, but in the end, the hope still kills you.'

'~ Stop talking trash.'

'Psst. I'm being objective. No judging.'

'~ He learned from his past mistakes. Give him a chance.'

'Yeah, of course, his only luck is being Xuan Mu's soul.'

'~ You're judgmental'

'Whatever. I only like Xuan Mu, change my mind.'

'~ What about Ziek?'

'Ziek is Xuan Mu too.'

Patting his back, Bing Shi thought about this unique man, who slipped too way often. One moment, he tried hard to behave like Xuan Mu or Ziek, the next moment, he acted like a monarch, who owned the world, which lasted for a second before he became a heartbroken guy.

She scratched his back full of holes, "From what you told me, it sounds like you feel guilty towards your ex. Because after her death, you didn't stay loyal to her. Seriously, I can spot an obsessed man from miles away. And you've been talking about little monster most of the time with deep enthusiasm."

His eyebrows shot up in surprise, eyes widening as he stared at Bing Shi, caught off guard by her words, "No, I never thought of her as something more than an acquaintance."

He only used little monster as a way to escape from losing a loved one. Somehow, it became a habit to explore her character. That's until Bing Shi uttered her next words, making him question his feelings.

"Obsession doesn't equal love. Makes me curious if I had a past lover too," she mused.

Ru Quan abruptly interrupted her train of thought, surprising himself, "There is no need to dwell on it." His own uncertainty surfaced from the depths. She must have had someone in her past, just as he did.

"Enough," Bing Shi exclaimed, reaching for his right wrist, "Why are you clutching at your chest all of a sudden?" She scrutinized his unblemished torso, noting that this odd behavior had only begun recently.

What was the trigger? Fear sprouted from under her skin as she thought about that horrendous disease, "Your ex really had to be special to be able to cure your insomnia."

Ru Quan felt her trembling hands on him, allowing her to hold onto him. He observed her troubled expression and confessed, "It's not something I can't live without. I'd rather die under your hands than sleep with her again."

"Remember your words." Bing Shi wasn't going to push him to Fei Lan if he didn't want to. She'd do the same. It was just uncomfortable to know that she was not the one, who had such a magical effect on him. Not as special as she thought.

She then tilted her head in contemplation, "Don't you find it odd? Shouldn't your ex be on Earth? What I know, each universe has its designated souls. I don't remember paying for her ticket."

Both of them looked at each other with raised eyebrows, their lips curved up deviously.

Nobody expected Ru Quan to recognize Fei Lan's soul, what more, he told the truth to Bing Shi. Bing Shi and Xuan Mu had their hands full with their own conflicts. Outsiders trying to cause a dispute in their relationship was like asking for a trashing.

Ru Quan gently cradled Bing Shi's head, drawing near and capturing her enticing lips before claiming them fervently. "It's getting late," he murmured. "We'll deal with this tomorrow."

"Uff...your kisses...huff..." Bing Shi patted her chest to shake off the dizziness caused by his passionate kiss, "Will you repair my pole?"

"I will," Ru Quan answered, detecting the subtle shift in her tone as if being a tad angry at him for ruining her property, "If you perform for me."

"No, no, no, I'm too shy," Bing Shi changed her mind immediately, "Good Night ♪♫."

"Good night..." Ru Quan replied, sensing a playful poke beneath the surface. He winced slightly when he felt her muffled laughter as she brushed her fingers against a particularly sensitive spot, causing a surge of discomfort. "Bing Shi..." He swatted her hand away, "Behave."

"No! My poor pole!" she pointed her finger at the middle of the room, "How would you feel if someone treated yours that way? Should I do it too? Hmm? Shall I?"

Was her anger just his imagination? No. It was just too subtle. Ru Quan took hold of her wrist, feeling a mix of embarrassment and frustration, "I'll fix it tomorrow."

He needed to vent his frustration. And that pole was irritating to his eyes, reminding him how Bing Shi was going to use it before someone else. He could guess it was for her mission, but until he found out what it was, he could do nothing against this.