QT: Against My Will (Volume 2)

5.81 - It Hurts - The Sleepless's Elite's Wife

╔═══ Author's note ════╗

I would like to ask. On whose side are you on?

Bing Shi's or Xuan Mu's?

Both have their reasons, and what I noticed, Xuan Mu usually receives the most pity from the readers. I know, Bing Shi and her strong principles + stubbornness can get annoying sometimes. :D

I hope you'll trust BS and XM's characters and their choices.

They don't act unreasonably like that for the sake of angst.

Many things will be explained at the end of this ARC.

Edited by Psycho S.

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"Cut!" The director called out, "What happened to you two?! You!" He pointed at the movie's male lead, "She is a puny combat engineer, whose gender you decided to keep a secret. You're a married general. Act like one. Don't hesitate to show who is the alpha here. Don't let her fear stop you. And you..."

The director pointed at Bing Shi nervously, her kind of fear was like she would protect her chastity with blood and teeth, "You won't kick him in the balls if he touched your beautifully 'shaved' face, right?"

"I'm sorry," Bing Shi and the movie's male lead bowed slightly in apology as they took a short break after many takes. If she knew what would happen with her husband, she wouldn't accept this role.

The lead for Bing Shi's new role was a young female who decided to secretly follow her husband into war, to serve the country after she miscarried her child and got to know that she wouldn't be able to bear another. After obtaining a spot as a combat engineer, she became a witness to her husband cheating her with local women, together with other men.

The next day she would see him writing a love letter for his wife, her. She would despise him with all her heart until she experienced it on her skin, causing her morals to clash. She experienced the cruelty of war and at the same time got attracted to a married general, the only man who didn't cheat during that night in the city.

It was a perfect movie to be nominated; Bing Shi wanted an award, so she went for an audition and got the role. How? First impressions were important. She lost a bit of weight and without a speck of sleep, she looked perfectly exhausted for the role.

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While Bing Shi's makeup was being retouched by the makeup artist, she felt that black miasma coming from the approaching male lead. Their souls met long before their eyes did. She got lost in her mind as blood rushed to her head— she didn't know how to react.

She realized that she was just trying to get to the next day, lost in the thought of living tomorrow's day. She didn't want to lose herself just to be 'good enough' for someone else, to keep that someone by her side, and exchange her happiness for his.

The depth of raw emotion in her eyes froze Xuan Mu in a trance. He could never clearly see her demons, he only ever saw the face that conquered them. She always had that look about her: a look of otherness. Her eyes that saw things much too far, that easily wandered off the edge of his soul, were currently scared... She was scared of being near him. In fact, she was entirely scared of him; of his power. As if her soul knew that he did something behind her back— something he shouldn't have.

Getting closer, he glanced at the script in her hands. After remembering his lines, his lips almost touching her ear, closing his eyes, taking in her presence, "Trying to fool me with your manager's heartbeat, hm? Were you suffering... sorry, adjusting to life without me?"