Bad Teacher MYG 21+

Wtf 🤐

Yoongi Pov

What the fuck did I just do? Say? I'm such a fucking dick. The way she looked after what I told her what we are. Actually broke me. What made that fucking come out of my mouth? We are far from casual Fuck buddies. I'm actually in love with her. I want more than that. But I froze. I know I can't have her right now and that's was the first thing that came out of my mouth.

I know Monica feels the same as me. I could feel it. Just by how her body melts in my touch, the way her eyes glisten, the slow passionate kisses, and that big bright smile on her face. That's all because of me. Last night, it wasn't just a fuck. It was more. I poured every bit of my heart into my thrust. Never taking my eyes off of her. And I never ever do that with any of girl under me. With other girls... I get it over and done with and kick them out my fucking door. But, with Monica I took my time. I didn't want to rush. I did it slowly and passionate. I was making love to her.

To me, we are not casually fuck buddies. Now, that I said that to her in her face. That's all she's going to think that we are. I should've just told her the fucking truth and said those three words. My fucking ass ruined everything and now I know she won't take one glance at me and ignore my presence.

"Hyung! What are you still doing in bed?" Jungkook asked

Luckily, I was just shirtless. And these friends of mine always barge into my room. Even though we all have seen each other but ass naked. I'm still preserve and like to at least wear pants when I sleep. I actually feel awkward as fuck when they see my dick or ass. It's not for them to look at.

"I'm fucking stupid" I said hiding my face with my forearm.

The bed dip and I knew he was sitting right next to me. Burning holes in my head until I spill everything.

All the boys are going to scold me over this. They know how I feel about it. They are going to fucking tell at me.

"What did you do?" He asked

Before I actually told him. The other came in and they could sense something was wrong with me. Even Jin. My eyes all met their's and I saw concern in them. The last time I saw them staring at me with worry was when my ex years ago cheated on me. And I was heart broken for weeks. But I took revenge on the situation and I was okay. Right now, they are looking at their leader (Me)... In a pile of shit.

"Yoongi?" Namjoon asked

"I fucked up with Monica" I said

"How?" Hoseok asked

"I said something that I shouldn't had have. You guys all know how I feel about it. And I said something that now has ruined my chance with her" I said

It felt like my heart was ripping into pieces. The hole that was in my heart was healing because of her. But, now the hole was there again and it felt like it got deeper. The void in my heart was cause of her.

"I said something I shouldn't have" I said

"Can you just spit it out and stop prolonging it?" Jimin asked

I glared at him like I just wanted to strangle him. He froze as my eyes turned black... Cold as ice. His body shook and I saw his Adam apple bob. Jimin is terrified of me. He knows when it's the right time or wrong time it is to mess with me. And this was the very wrong time to fuck with me.

"S-sorry Yoongi" Jimin stuttered

I sighed and calmed myself down. I was this fucking close of killing Jimin right on my floor.

"Ignore him Yoongi. But what happened?" Jin asked

"I told her that we were just casually fuck buddies" I said

The guys gasped and all their eyes widened. I could tell they were shocked at what I just said. Just the same as Monica looked.

"I-I froze... I wanted to tell her the truth. But I couldn't spit it out. My mind stopped working and that's was the first thing that came out. You should've seen her face. It's like a part of me just fucking died right there and then." I said

The boys didn't say anything as they just stared at me. It's like their minds stop turning and couldn't spit something out.

"What should I do?" I asked " I'm going to be facing her at school and I know she won't bother with me" I said

"It's hard to say. If it was me in this situation, I'd probably give her some space. Cause she's already going through a lot and now this added more heartache and all to her other problems. Let her cool down and maybe when things are good again that you can explain and tell her the truth" jin said

"But it will kill me even more when she won't look or talk to me." I said

"Jin is right. Just give her some space. Don't hound her with texts or calls. Only talk to her if she calls on you in class. I would take it step by step" Jungkook said

The boys were right. I guess space is the best option right now.

"Alright, we'll lets go to school and get this day over with. It's going to be hard but I guess it will have to be done" I said

The guys nodded their heads and left my bedroom. I got out of bed and got ready for school. It was like my body was in slow motion right now. I couldn't even think or say.

As soon as we left the house and piled into Jin's car I was quiet. The boys were laughing and shit but I was staring out the window look at the scenery. The whole drive, I was thinking about Monica. I loved the way she smiled, talked, laughed around me. Especially the way her body felt underneath me. It was like she was made for me. We fit together like a puzzle piece. She actually gave me life that was dead.

What the fuck is wrong with me? I ruined this chance with her just by the fucking words I said to her face.

Why couldn't I just tell her the truth?

And now she won't even give me a chance.

I never said the three wordd before to a girl. Not even my ex. But Monica is different and I actually feel it. I want to say it to her. Make things better. Spend my life with her. Have a future with her.

I don't think those words will change anything.

I hope someday they will.

I love you Monica so fucking much.