The End Of All Things (Ryden)

Wish you were here

!!! WARNING !!! 

There is parts of abuse and some sexual content. 

RYANS POV

It was the next morning, and I was awoken by my dad and April fighting again which was normal. Cause it was an almost and everyday thing. If I was being honest, I didn't want to wake up after everything that happened last night. I smell like alcohol, and I could taste it in my mouth I really wanted to brush my teeth and take a shower, but I couldn't with the fact that I am locked in my room. 

I started thinking about Brendon wishing he was here to hold me. If I would have told him everything, I'd probably of woke up with him at his house and everything that did happen last night probably wouldn't of happen and I wouldn't be here in pain wishing I was dead at in this moment. But it was too late now cause it all happened anyway and I have to live with it. In a way I'm glad I didn't go to school today cause if it wasn't for the tiny compact mirror in backpack that I dug out I wouldn't have known that I had a black eye and I would have most likely had so many questions asked that I wouldn't, no couldn't have answered. 

I was so board not having anything to do while being locked up. So, I just dragged out my old notebook and started writing in it like I was always did when I was locked in my room. I had to clue as to what time it was, but all of sudden I heard my dad's car start up and speed away. But I didn't see April leave with him meaning she was still here. Probably to keep an eye on me, as if I can go anywhere since they have my door locked and I can't climb out the window because they also rigged it to where I can't open it. I hate this feeling of being trapped and not being able to leave. Just the thought of it started to make me have a panic attack just I always had in these situations. I had no sense of time or any sense of when or how long I would be in here. Luckily, I did have a small old Mp3 player that also has a regular FM radio on it. So, I put in my crappy earbuds and turned it on the radio to my favorite station. It gave me some sense of relive. 

I was so lost in listening to my radio and writing that I almost didn't pay attention to the song that came on next. It was the song Tonight, Tonight. That just the night before Brendon was singing so beautifully in car that made me in awe of him. With that I put my notebook aside and laid back on my bed and closed my eyes just picturing Brendon singing the song in the car, wishing I was really there again with him in that perfect moment.

It was what I'm assuming a few hours later cause the sun was starting to set that I again was awoken by a loud knock on my bedroom door. Not even realizing I had fell asleep I jolted up in my bed and awaited whatever was to come next. I was not prepared for what was coming next cause my dad never done this before. I heard someone messing with the lock on my door and when it opened, I saw my dad standing there with some lady I've never seen before. 

"Hey son." he scrawled at me "I've paid this nice lady to fuck the gay out of you. Once you are done, I will let you come out." He then started laughing and pushed the lady through my door and closed it behind her. I then heard the lock being locked again. I was in absolute terror about what was about to happen. Even more so as the lady walked over to my bed and sat at the foot of the bed. I just tucked my knees into my chest in fear. The lady just looked at me and eventually moved closer to me and whispered, "Just make out with me and I will lie to whom I'm assuming is your father and tell him we did it." 

At first, I didn't say anything to her I just looked at her in shock. Why was she being so nice to me, she doesn't even know me, and she was willing to lie for me. "Why are you doing this for me?"

"Cause luckily your dad doesn't know, but I'm actually a lesbian. So, I don't even like guys. But I'm willing to just make out with you." 

I was in complete shock but also very grateful for her in this very moment. Even though I didn't want to even kiss her, cause for one I'm gay, but for two I've never kissed a girl at all. But if it was going to get me out of here, I was willing to do whatever I had to do. So, without saying anything I just nodded my head in agreement.