The day of the second world war aka WWII.
I was scared and nervous for my new lover Tommy. He allowed me to call him Tommy.
'Darling' I 'm off to fight in the war.'
I remember these words so clear.
1944~
time goes by fast.
First I met the man of my dreams
now he's in the war.
I 'm so nervous.
I hear the guns, the bombs,
the screams, the airplanes
the bombs dropping from the planes. Everything. I can hear it.
I can hear it all. I heard it all. All of it.
I curled into a ball.
I cried and screamed, wanting Tommy near me.
I needed him near my side at night.
Then I got a telegram, a few days later... he was being sent home from the war.. .because he did not want to be away from me..........
I was despair. I was depressed.
I was scared. I was worried. I was terrified.
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what the telegram said:
𝓣𝓮𝓵𝓮𝓰𝓻𝓪𝓶
𝓦𝓮 𝓱𝓪𝓿𝓮 𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓻𝓲𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓷𝓮𝔀𝓼 𝓪𝓫𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓣𝓱𝓸𝓶𝓪𝓼 𝓢𝓱𝓮𝓵𝓫𝔂
𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓱𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓯𝓻𝓸𝓶 𝔀𝓪𝓻, 𝓭𝓾𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓟𝓢𝓣𝓓
𝓪𝓷𝓭 𝓾𝓷𝓪𝓫𝓵𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓯𝓸𝓬𝓾𝓼 𝓸𝓷 𝓪𝓷𝔂𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓷𝓰, 𝔀𝓲𝓽𝓱𝓸𝓾𝓽 𝓜𝓪𝓻𝔂𝓪𝓷𝓷𝓮 𝓫𝓮𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓷𝓮𝔁𝓽 𝓽𝓸 𝓱𝓲𝓶.
𝓱𝓮 𝔀𝓲𝓵𝓵 𝓫𝓮 𝓬𝓸𝓶𝓲𝓷𝓰 𝓱𝓸𝓶𝓮 𝓪𝓽 𝓪𝓻𝓸𝓾𝓷𝓭 12 𝓽𝓱𝓲𝓼 𝓪𝓯𝓽𝓮𝓻𝓷𝓸𝓸𝓷.
I got the telegram,
I still have it in my page of my diary. I will never take this out. Ever.
Once Tommy was home, at around 12 that afternoon;
he was acting different.
He wanted me around him. He wanted to lay with him, he wanted me with him. He wanted me to kiss him. 'Tommy you feeling alright?' I asked him.
We kissed that night.
