Context:
Bojan messed up a note and you comfort him. Your Name is Madeline.
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Bojan's POV:"Živeli, kot da jutri nas mogoče več ne bo"
Shit. I missed the note...again.
I finished the song feeling hazy, just trying my very best not to cry on stage.
Management would not be happy if I was filmed crying again. The words of Gregor still replaying in my ears from all those years ago
"The fans can't know when you're upset Bojan, that's not the Bojan they want"
"Goodnight Ljubljana!! We love you" Kris said, Blowing kisses at the crowd as we did the same, "You guys have been absolutely incredible! This is Joker Out!" I said as I ran backstage, praying for my voice not to break mid-sentence.
"Hey Boči, it's okay!! we all mess up sometimes. There's always tomorrow" Nace said, Patting my back.
I know he's just trying to help, but right now I don't want to listen, I just want to cry. I can't have management be mad again. I can't handle that.
We're so close to being done with them and I want to end it on the closest to a high as we can get.
I held it together but the moment I got into my dressing room I locked the door and fell to the floor crying.
Why am I such a mistake? Why can't I just hit that damn note?
I heard a knock at the door.
"Boči, let me in please"
"No Madeline, go away," I said, Sounding like a whining child.
"Not going anywhere Ljubezen, Let me in" After 10 minutes that felt like hours, I knew she wasn't going to leave so I collected myself and got up and let her in.
She saw my tear-stained face and quickly pulled me into a hug. "Hey Boči, It's going to be okay, shhh. just breathe with me"
"in"
"out"
"in"
"out"
I did as I was told.
"Good job Boči, See? it's okay. One more time for me, okay?"
I nodded as I started to steady my breathing.
"in" "and out"
As soon as we were done I started to sob, burying my head into her neck.
"I can't believe I keep messing that stupid note up. It's not even that hard. I hate messing it up Maddy.
I hate disappointing the fans. I'm supposed to be a singer but I can't even sing the damn song right."
"Hey, hey no-"
"No, Maddy, I'm a singer who can't even sing" I pulled away. I glued my eyes to the floor, Not wanting him to see me upset.
"Look at me, Boči. Okay?...You know how I see it?" She rubbed her hand over my cheek as my eyes meant his.
"You're a person who likes to sing so you're singing. And you know what? You just happen to be really fucking great at it.
You're not disappointing in one bit. If they love you, which they do, they know that you're only human and part of being human is making mistakes.
That's all it is okay? just a little mistake. We all make mistakes, like when I filmed Jan and Kris rehearsing your new song or when I used the wrong word in that one interview and then you and the others made fun of me for weeks or-"
"When you told Damiano from Måneskin to 'keep doing what you're doing' and 'good job' when he got accused of doing drugs at eurovision" I added with a slight grin in my face.
"Hey! You better watch it or you're sleeping on the couch tonight" She laughed a little, then she grabbed my hand and led me to the sofa. I laid in between her legs resting my head on her chest. Her gently carving little figure eights into my chest.
"How do you do it?"
"Do what Boči?"
"You always cheer me up, Even when it feels impossible," I said as she ran her fingers through my hair.
"I don't know, I try my best. That's what you do when you love someone, you try.
And if it doesn't work then at least you know you put all of you into it.
Besides... I just like to see you happy" I smiled, She was my Sunshine. "I like to see you happy to Boči."
"Well that's good because you make me the happiest person in the world and all beyond it"
"You're So sappy" she laughed, that signature smirk on her face. "Says you Mr. 'I watch mean girls every day' "
After a second of silence, we both started laughing, knowing damn well we're both equally sappy.
"Ljubim te Maddy"
"Tudi jaz te ljubim Boči"
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god you have no idea how much i cried after writing this but the live version of "everybody's waiting" inspired me and now this is the result. hope you liked it and didn't cry as much as i did (and if you did, remember you're not alone and you're so loved) and i'd be happy about if you'd give this story a like. And if you have any Ideas for any Band Member, feel free to tell me. If i like it and i have time, i will turn your Idea into a little Story. But please remember that i mostly write only Fluffy stories, so no fights or stuff :)
Lots of Love
Katrina (who's changing back to her Nickname: Kati) <3
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