LEXIE'S POV:
The morning after the storm inside me had passed, I found myself entangled in a web of depression and confusion. I decided that distancing myself from Renee was the only way to protect her from the darkness within me. We were colleagues, not friends – that was the mantra I repeated to myself as I threw myself into work, determined to maintain a professional facade.
After the concert, I convinced myself that a night out with the backup dancers would be the perfect distraction. A few bars, a few drinks – what harm could it do? The search for a one-night stand was an attempt to drown out the echoes of my own insecurities.
In one dimly lit bar, I found myself drawn to a cute blonde named Billie. The resemblance to Renee was uncanny, and maybe that was what drew me in. The familiarity in her features, the hint of the connection I yearned for but had decided to suppress.
"Hey there," Billie grinned, her eyes playful as she caught me staring.
I mustered a half-smile, pushing away the thoughts of Renee that threatened to invade my mind. "Hey. What's your name?"
"Billie," she replied, leaning in a little closer. "And you?"
"Lexie," I replied, matching her flirtatious tone.
"What's a pretty girl doing like you all alone here?"
"Trying to forget someone I can't have. Maybe you can help?" I asked while smirking and placing a hand around her waist.
The night blurred into a haze of laughter, music, and shots. Billie and I found ourselves in her apartment, the weight of the night hanging in the air. But as we shared an intimate moment, all I could think about was Renee – the one person I was desperately trying to forget.
The morning light streamed through the window, and the reality of the night before hit me like a ton of bricks. Billie lay beside me, a content smile on her face, but I couldn't shake the emptiness that lingered within me.
My phone buzzed incessantly with missed calls and texts from Renee, her worry evident in each message.
RENEE <3: Hey babe, where are you? I need my cuddle buddy after tonight.
RENEE <3: LEXIE WHERE ARE YOU?
RENEE <3: PICK UP YOUR PHONE! I'm worried
RENEE <3:Did I do something wrong?
RENEE <3: Why are you ignoring me? I miss you
RENEE <3: Please call me
Ignoring her was a painful choice, but one I felt compelled to make. I spent the day with Billie, drowning out the echoes of guilt with fleeting distractions.
As I returned to the concert venue, I avoided every attempt Renee made to talk to me. The distance I had created between us was a fortress, and I fortified its walls, unwilling to let her glimpse the vulnerability that lurked within.
The long day unfolded with a relentless pace, and the weight of my choices pressed on me. I sought refuge in the shadows, buried beneath the weight of my own insecurities.
Finally, as the day's chaos subsided, I retreated to my room alone. The emptiness that echoed within seemed insurmountable, and the facade I had constructed began to crack. I needed someone to confide in, someone who could see beyond the walls I had built.
Dialing Lisa's number back home, I felt a mix of relief and trepidation. The phone rang a few times before Lisa's voice filled the line.
"Lexie! How's the tour going?" She greeted me with enthusiasm.
I sighed, my voice betraying the weariness that clung to me. "Hey, Lisa. It's... complicated. Can we talk?"
"Of course," Lisa replied, her tone shifting to one of concern. "What's going on?"
I poured my heart out to Lisa, confessing the tangled mess of emotions, insecurities, and mistakes. The weight of my choices hung in the air as I bared my soul, seeking solace in the familiarity of a friend who had always been there for me.
After the conversation, the shadows within seemed a bit lighter. Lisa's comforting words provided a glimpse of the support and understanding I had been desperately craving.
The tour continued, and as I faced the challenges ahead, the echoes of that night lingered. The choice to distance myself from Renee, to seek solace in the arms of a stranger, had left scars that ran deeper than the surface. As I faced the spotlight again, I wondered if the shadows within me would ever find their way into the light.
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FATE & ATTRACTION
FanfictionLexie is a recently graduated lesbian working as a new tour content creator for Renee Rapp. It's her first job since finishing college and she's excited to meet Renee, she's had a crush on her since forever and can't believe she got this job. Will t...
