Bulletproof love

bulletproof love part 14

*Sallys POV*

I wanna hold your hand so tight, I'm gonna break my wrist. And as the vultures sing tonight I'm gonna join right in.

I looked out of the raindrop dotted window at the blurred world outside.It was a Monday morning and as usual we were off to school, passing Samanthas house first to pick her up.

After the incident yesterday I was extremely nervous over what was going to happen next.

What was she going to think?

what if she asks me why i left?

What if she thinks I'm crazy?

I buried my head in my hands trying to stop the never ending questions floating around in my head. This wasn't healthy. I just need to accept the fact that what happened, happened and that i should move on as she'll never like me back... Then again who would ever love this horrible mess I am.

Suddenly the car came to a stop and as I noticed we had reached Sam's house I flinched back into a casual pose and rubbed my eyes removing the tearful waterline and begging my eyes weren't red from the moments ago.

"Hey guys!" Sam greeted us as she opened the car door and got inside, clicking on her seatbelt.

"uh.. hey" I forced out of my broken and smashed heart. I really didnt want to make this any more awkward so I though I would have to talk to her unless we might stop being friends and I didnt want that at all.

We didn't talk for the rest of the journey. Well i dont think we did. My head was so full of questions that i couldnt fully interact with the outside world. The only thing that was filling my senses were my thoughts and the world rolling past my window.

"Okay you guys were here! See you after school" Jaime exclaimed as we both unclicked our seat belts and got out of the mini and started walking up to school hearing the car drive off behind us.

The moment we started walking Sam started walking much faster and leaving me on my own.

"See what you've done now?" My thoughts told me, "you've fucking scared her off. You shouldn't fucking make a baby of yourself and man up."

As I walked into the building she had already gone out of sight, lost in the building. I decided to just shrug it off the best I could and go to my class before I was late. Even if my insides were drowning from the tears I was holding in I plastered a big smile on my face and climbed up the steps.

As I turned the corner into my classroom I grabbed my book and sat down at the back corner of the class letting my fringe fall in front of my face covering my tear stained eyes. I looked up again towards the door to see Sam enter, turning her head away from my gaze completely ignoring me, her eyes were red from crying.

"Oh god" I thought. "Ive made her cry now, well done Sally."

At lunch I sat alone. As I thought Sam had not turned up and left me with nothing but empty seats. I was such a loner in this school. No one seemed to like me and I had no idea why. 

Just then I heard someone sit next to me. I looked up from the table to see Sam sat there looking straight ahead, avoiding my gaze.

"S...Sally.. I..I'm sorry" Sam stuttered out. Her sad voice cracking together through every word.

"Why are you sad Sam? You have nothing to worry abou-"

"Look okay?  You wanna know what's fucking wrong?" She snapped at me as she stood from her chair staring at me with fire burning in her eyes "I...I love y..you" her voice cracked sadly at the words as her flaming eyes were replaced with floods of water staining down her cheeks.

I couldn't believe what I was hearing.. she liked Vic. How could she like me? She already has her true love. "B...but v..vic" I blurted out

"Yes, yes Vic" she cracked out "I...I love him t..too but I dont k...know what to do anymore. I don't know who to choose" she screamed at me. The tears turning into floods.

"Look, Sam lets go somewhere else, people are staring at you" I told her as I gestured for her to follow me into a spare room to talk about it.

"S..so you like me?" I asked, closing the door behind me.

"I dont even know Sally, I don't know to do" she cried, fury in her voice. She sat on the floor and cried into her hands.

I really didn't know what to say. I was speechless at the situation. I walked over to her at the other side of the room gesturing out my hand to help her up.

"I...I love you too..." I sighed as she grabbed my hand and I pulled her up. "But go be with Vic... he's better than m-

My words were cut short as I felt her lips crashing onto mine and attacking them with fury. I flinched.

"I shouldn't be doing this" I thought, "she's dating Vic."

Then I felt her pull away, her cheeks bright red with embarrassment and her eyes wide with panic

"O..oh my god I..I'm so sorry I did.nt mean to-

I finished off her sentence by finding that I had re connected the kiss, making out with her like I forgot to do before.

Before she could protest I felt her kiss me back, placing her arms round my back messing up my long black hair.

This was heaven,  I had waited so long for this and I had finially got what I wanted.