“I don’t have time for you. You may go now.”
“B-but I can’t—“
“Wanna die?! Go away!”
OMG! I really hate my life. Bitter ba? Sorry naman. You can’t blame me. Well, I am a Bitch. I have a good heart BEFORE. They said that I was perfect before but I don’t want to remember any of it. I’m enjoying myself right now. Enjoying everything that I can’t do before. I’m enjoying car racing, flirting with boys, having fights with someone. I know I’m too bad but I don’t effin care. I just want to live my life the way I wanted it to be.
I DON’T WANT TO REMEMBER ANYTHING ABOUT MY OLD SELF.
I DON’T WANT TO REMEMBER MY STUPIDITY JUST TO HAVE HIM BACK.
I WANT TO SHOW THEM THE OTHER SIDE OF ME.
They said that I am so lucky because I have a PERFECT LIFE. Well, they were all WRONG! Not because I always get what I want means that I have a perfect life. No one is perfect! No one can ever be perfect.
I tried to be perfect but I end up having nothing. I end up losing EVERYTHING.
*FLASH BACK*
“Alec! Please naman oh, pag-usapan natin to.”
“Alodhia…”
“A-alec, ano ba ang nagawa kong mali?”
“Alodhia, there’s nothing wrong with you. It’s me…” Alec
“T-three years, a-almost three years Alec… W-why? Is ther—“
“Yes! I-I’m in love with someone.” Alec
“Alec please, gagawin ko lahat just don’t leave me.”
“I don’t love you anymore.”
That’s what I really want to hear pero bakit ang hirap tanggapin? Three years, siya lang. Hindi ko napansin na napaupo na pala ako at umiiyak. I just saw myself asking him questions.
“When did you start loving h-her?” pilit kong pinatatag ang boses ko.
“I don’t know… I really don’t know.”
“I-I wanna know who is she.”
“ *sigh* Si… C-charmaine. Yung schoolmate ko na Nursing student sa University na pinapasukan ko dati. S-siya yun.”
“A-are you referring t-to *tears* *sob* C-charmaine t-that is your…. fri…friend?” I look at him straight to the eyes, hoping that mali yung inaakala ko. But what the heck! Hindi niya ako magawang tignan sa mga mata ko.
“I see. Hindi nga ako nagkamali. It was her.” I’m trying my best to stop crying. I want to be a strong person sa harap niya. kahit ngayon lang, kahit sandali lang.
“ Almost 1 year mo na pala akong niloloko!! ALMOST ONE YEAR NIYO NA PALA AKONG NILOLOKO!!!! Cursed you! Dammit!“ I slapped him very very hard.
“Kayo na that time hindi ba? That time na kinausap ako ni Yannah na bantayan kita.” Now, I’m not crying. I’m no longer crying. Kasi hindi siya karapat-dapat iyakan.
“…..” Alec
“Answer me!!” I shout at him.
“Y-yes, your right.” After kong marinig yung sinabi niya, I feel numb.
“I-I thought that the key to have a *sob*p-perfect relationship is by giving your partner a freedom. Well I guess I am wrong, very very wrong. I tried my best to be the perfect one, but I gained nothing. Y-you, I thou—“
“Let’s break up!” Alec
“Hahahaha, can’t you wait?” I laugh bitterly
“I just love her so mu—“
“Don’t give me damn! Sana matagal mo ng sinabi saken. Nagmukha akong tanga! Kaya pala ganun na lang siya kung makatitig at kumilos. Galit na galit sa akin kahit wala naman akong ginagawang mali. Now I know.” Galit na ako. Galit na talaga ako. Wala naman akong pakialam sa babae na iyon. Hindi nga ako nag-abala na kilalanin siya ng husto eh.
“We are done. Sorry.” Tumalikod na siya at naglakad palayo sa akin ng nagsalita ulit ako then he stopped walking.
“Alec… don’t do this. Sasaktan ka lang niya! Hindi ka magiging masaya sa kanya!!” humarap siya at lumapit sa akin.
“Fuck! At kanino ako sasaya ha?! Sayo?!! I love her, don’t you get it?” ang bilis na ng agos ng luha ko.
BINABASA MO ANG
My First, My Last???
Teen FictionI am a Bitch. I have a good heart BEFORE. They said that I was perfect before but I don’t want to remember any of it. I’m enjoying myself right now. Enjoying everything that I can’t do before. I’m enjoying car racing, flirting with boys, having figh...
