I was all cozy in my bed once i heard a loud alarm blairing, my alarm clock. The day i have been dreading has finally came, i mean its a day i've been wanting ever since i was a little kid but now that its been approaching and now its here i don't want anymore. Moving day. Recently, i've been dreading it. I don't want to leave my family especially my little sister, i'll miss her so much and i know she'll miss me. But i got the place already and my parents want me out, me moving out was mostly their choice.
I got up and stretched before turning my clock off. I sighed and put my slippers on, i loved these since my boyfriend got me these. Although he has been distant recently i still love him, i understand he has a lot going on right now.
Now i had to face my family. Great.
I reached for my phone and tried to turn it on, dead. I really did pass out last night, did i really stay up that late? I guess so, i reached for my phone charger and plugged my phone in. It would take a while for it to actually turn on so i just decided to leave my phone there and talk to my parents.
I hated how my room looked right now. There was boxes everywhere and everything was a mess. Even i was a mess. I sat on the edge of my bed for a few minutes before looking back at my phone but it was still off. I stood up again and made my way from my room to the kitchen.
To my luck, no one was there yet but i knew my parents would wake up soon. I looked around for something to eat, opening the fridge to get the gallon of milk then to the pantry to get a box of cereal from there, i got a bowl from the cabinets. I poured the cereal into the bowl, then the cereal, i walked back to the sink to get a clean spoon after, i walked back to my seat to enjoy my cereal.
I didn't even get to take my first bite when i heard my parents door open. Oh my god, i started eating so it looked like i've been here for a while. I heard their footsteps come down the stairs "Morning." i heard my mother say, i swallowed my food and replied "Good Morning" i already knew they were going to start and try to talk me out of this. It wasn't going to work, i already had my mind set on it and plus i really couldn't change my mind since i already had the place.
I heard a sigh come from my mother, here she goes. "are you really going to do it?.. We'll miss you a ton, especially Mila." really? really? she really had to bring my sister into this for me to even consider it? "Mom, i cant change my mind i have the place already." I replied and took another spoonful, chewing and swallowing. "Yes but think of Mila.. think of how sad she'll be." there she goes, always thinking she can change my mind by dragging Mila in. Does she not know she's the reason why i'm leaving in the first place? "Mom, you know why i'm leaving right? You wanted me to leave." I let my spoon fall into the bowl of cereal, I didn't want to eat anymore. It took everything in me to not lash out at her.
"yes but.. we want you to stay. Come on you know we always want you to be with us." She always repeated the cycle, she would want me out of her house for something small i did then would beg me to stay. Now that i'm really leaving she wants me to stay. "But you wanted me out so thats what i'm doing. I seriously cant back out now, i'm leaving and thats settled. Nothing can talk me out, not even Mila and not even you or dad.." I snapped, i could have said more but i didn't want to go on a bad note.
I saw her smile fade, I knew I upset her now. Really just what I needed this perfect morning. "Okay, if thats what you want. Out of my house and leave me and your dad here all alone. Mila will leave soon you know? I guess we'll have no one to take care of us when we're old. If thats what you want. Leave." She repeated the same thing over and over. Now she's onto the guilt tripping. "Nothing is making me stay, Mom. And you know thats not what i want." I said and covered my face, I was so done with this already. I wanted to leave already, I had to leave.
I got up and just left my bowl there. In a few hours there wont be any more nagging or any more of hearing her voice. Peace at last. Im not saying i hate my mother.. nor am i saying she's annoying. Well, sometimes she can be, but we had our moments together. Anyway, I really cant change my mind now, what if I find a man to take care of me or something? Lol, never.
Right?..
Hopefully.
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