All I Want is Love

Chapter 30

KEE's POV

Once Debbie told us that they'll be back me and Jada walked out to the car to wait for her. For some odd reason Paco walks out to where we were.

I swear I lost respect for him when he said everything earlier. I'm really starting to think that we shouldn't even be together if he really feel that way. Like i don't need the extra stress especially with dealing with the kids I just can't.

I was leaning against the car just thinking when I kept getting the feeling that somebody was starring at me. I looked up to see Paco just starring at me like he had a problem.

"Problem the fvck"

"What was said"

"What the fvck are you starring at?!"

"Shut the fvck up yo like forreal"

"Bytch axx niccas" I scoffed

"If you got something to say then say it don't mumble nothing when i'm right here" he said walking towards me.

" Nicca I said Bytch Axx Niccas, the fvck you coming in my face like I'm suppose to be scared or some shyt. Never been a scared bytch"

"At least you know you a bytch"

As soon as he said that i slapped the shyt out of him. Who the fvck do he think he is to keep caling me out my name. I let that shyt slide earlier but i'm not that type of bytch and he knows that.

"Aye what the fvck Kee?!", Marcus yelled pulling me away from him.

"Let me go Marcus!!"

"Nah, aye Paco what the fvck you do to my sister?!"

Debbie walked over to me and whispered in my ear, "I think it's time to tell him the truth about you and Paco"

I just stood there looking at Paco while Marcus tried to figure out why I slapped Paco.

"There's nothing to tell" I said with tears falling down my face.

Paco looked at me with those big brown eyes like he couldn't believe what i just said. I put mmy head down and walked off.

I heard Debbie, Marcus and Jada calling my name as i was walking away. I thought i could do it but I can't. I can't be around him and pretend that he ain't shyt.

I can't go on with y day like this morning never happened and he never said what he said. I just can't do it, it hurts to much and I'm tired of hiding my feelings.

I hopped in my car and drove off. I don't know where I'm going but i know I'm going somewhere. I don't wanna be bothered today and especially not by the person who has me feeling the way I'm feeling.

I been thinking about moving back to Philly a lot lately but I know I can't do that. I have a job and my kids' lives are in Atlanta I can't just make them up and leave. I guess imma have to deal with their dumb axx no good father.

He starting to act just like Taj, like he is no better and i really tired with him. He had a big advantage being the fact that he was my NFL and he wasn't going anywhere.

Now I don't know, I don't know what we are and if we'll ever be what we was. I'm tired of getting hurt, I just want for something in my life to go right. At least one thing.

I don't like how the one person I'm with that's suppose to bring me happiness is the one that make me say Fvck Love. It's crazy when the one that's suppose to prevent you from getting your feelings hurt by others is the one that's hurting you the most.

When you have no one to turn to, to comfort you because you comforter is out doing and saying dumb shyt.

I found myself driving to this park I used to come to when I first moved to Atlanta. It's not much there but it's quiet and gives you that time to yourself.