The One That Almost Got Away (EJ x Reader fan fiction)

I Can't

I told him I'd think about it.. I have 2 days till Joseph gets back and that's not enough time... I want to go but I don't know if I can just leave, this is all I've known at least life is simple. Running away from the cops, finding food, ej killing and eating people... then it dawns on you, he does do that, he takes innocent peoples lives... this makes your heart sink, and you accidentally avoid Ej because every time you look at him you think about, you wonder why anyone could ever do that.

The next day Ej comes to you

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I approached Y/n even though it was obvious that she wanted space, but if she wanted to go it would have to be decided today because it would take all day to prepare.
"Y/n I know you didn't have much time to think about this but we have very little time, I need to know if you are coming with me, I promise I'll do anything it takes to make you happy out there, I just need to know now I'm sorry..." I say gently to her and she kind of just stares at me for a bit, what is she thinking?
"I can't... EJ I-" I stopped listening after that, she wasn't coming but If she stays she'll be hurt... but I won't make her come with me. I just wish she would I know she hates him, why does she stay with that horrible guy?.. I want to keep her safe.

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"I can't... EJ I'm sorry but I have to stay here... I don't have a choice" what if he looks for me? I can't EJ in danger. I love him but it's safer that way, please understand jack, please don't be mad at me... even though he has no eyes I could she the instant sadness in his face I felt horrible, I swore I was going to throw up. I hope he can forgive me... maybe he'll visit me.. but that could be dangerous, I don't want him to come back ever, I want to keep him safe.

Joesph called me again later that day, Ej was on the couch he wasn't talking to me or looking at me...
"Yes Joe?" I asked trying not to sound annoyed.
"I'll be home at dinner time, I expect a full meal when I get there." He said as arrogantly as he could, I don't think that man has ever heard himself talk.
"Of course dear, nothing any less, you must be very tired"
"Yes, this trip was very important and I had no time for breaks." I roll my eyes because I know he always says that but he tells his friends about all the fun he had and how many hot women he saw.
"Don't worry everything will be as expected once you get home dear." He hung up without saying goodbye, that was typical for him. Ej scoffs, he must really hate Joseph, I mean I do as well so I can't blame him. Maybe I should go.. I don't want to be with Joe my whole life, Ej I'd be with every life time... what should I do?..

The next morning arrives and you quietly fix the house to Joe's liking as Ej quietly makes it seem like he was never there. There was not a glance at one another, Ej slept on the couch that night, and you haven't said a word to each other since yesterday afternoon. You hate this! Why won't you just go with him? what's holding you back? Why won't he just force you to go that would be so much easier... no it only be easier because that's all you're used to ej's a good man that's why he's not forcing you, why won't you go?...