To All The Boys I Still Love

Facetime

Henry and I would FaceTime almost everyday after school. I fell in love. I knew I wanted him from the very beginning.

I was very ugly back in those days. I knew he wouldn't want me. I was black and tall. Nobody's type was that. At least where I was from. I was use to it, I made it seem like I didn't really care. I infact did care so much.

Henry made me feel happy and special. He was a man whore though. He always had a new girlfriend every single week.

I was just his girl best friend. I needed to accept that he wouldn't to date me. I always told myself I don't like him he's just a friend. But those feelings wouldn't go away.

Fast-forward a couple months or so later we've talked on snapchat and face-timed all the time. One day he sent me a TikTok and it said "Bro why are you even trying she probably sends "🥺" to 10 guys".

Mind you this was like 2021 a bit cringe I know. I was so confused because I thought he would never like me. I responded back saying "what? I don't and I would never do that".

A couple weeks later he sent me a snap. It says "wyd" on it but under the "wyd" it said "i like you". I screenshotted it to get a better look because I just couldn't believe it. I responded with "I saw that haha".

A few minutes later he said "Do you like me" I said yea of course". He was being a pick me though. He kept saying "but who would want to date me". I would clearly.

A few couple of days later it was "national ask your crush out day" I thought since he liked me I would send that to him. He said "sorry I don't feel like dating anyone at this time", I was like "Oh that's okay." He kept on asking "are you sure". I mean of course I wasn't, I was so sad. But I kept replying with "yeah i'm fine".

It was even more sad to find out he got a girlfriend 2 days after that. If you didn't want to date my just say that.