You Are In Love

5: Sandy's past

breaking down and coming undone
It's a roller coaster kind of rush
And I never knew I could feel that much
And that's the way I loved you

5: SANDY'S PAST

SANDY'S POV:

I woke up to a good morning message from Shub and as I was about to reply I noticed the date.
I could feel my heart sink and stomach twist as I realised that today marked six months since my father's death. My heart felt heavy with grief and pain felt fresh and raw.

All the memories flooded my brain as I realised that the man who was my everything in life was gone now, forever. I remembered the times we would visit the country side, or he'd take to posh clubs I could never afford back then. After a bad day I knew that I could crash at his place for the night and he'd be there for me when I needed him.

I know that if think about this today, I won't be able to keep my emotions in control. So I decided to bury my feelings, put on a brave face and head to work.

As I stepped into the BCCI office to submit my articles, I saw the boys on field having a practice session. Shub caught my eye and gave me cheerful wave but I just couldn't match this enthusiasm. Virat bhai saw me and gave me a understanding smile.

SHUBMAN'S POV:

I think I messed up. Sandy didn't respond to my text this morning and now she just looked distant when I said hi. I decided to check with Virat bhai

" Virat bhai, is it just me or did Sania seem kinda off today?"

"I too noticed a visible change in her demeanour." Ishan said

Virat bhai sighed and said, "Well boys, I cannot delve into the details of Sandy's personal life because it's not my place. It's just that today is a really difficult day for her. Give her some privacy to deal with it."

"We understand bhai and we'll respect her boundaries." I said

"Yes bhai, just let us know if you need any help." Ishan said maturely

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I couldn't take my mind of Daisy the entire day. Even though bhai asked us respect her privacy, I just wanted to do something to help. That's when I had an idea - I would just drop off some of her favourite pesto pasta for dinner to her room, this way she could have a little pick me up on a tough day.

I knock on her door with the intentions to execute my plan, she opens the door and I can see that she is very sad.
"Hey Daisy! I'm really sorry for intruding but I thought you were having a tough time, so I thought you could use a little pick me up." I said as I handed her the take out container

"Oh Shub, that's really kind." She said as her voice chocked up and tears welled in her eyes.
Seeing her like that broke my heart so I just instinctively pulled her into a hug as she broke down.

"I'm sorry Shub, I really tried my best to hold it in but I just can't anymore."

"Daisy you don't have to that, holding in your emotions will make you feel worse. I promise I'm here for you"

SANDY'S POV:

His words got to me and I felt like I wanted to tell him about everything.

"Hey Shub, wanna come in and share the pasta for dinner."
"Ha sure, wanna watch Netflix or something?"
"I actually wanted to talk to you about my past Shub."
"Ofcourse, go on daisy I'm listening."

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"Alright, so back in late 90s, my parents were in a relationship and then my mom got pregnant. Obviously it wasn't planned but my dad convinced her to keep the child a.k.a me. However after I was born, my mom couldn't handle the pressure so she left when I was an year old."

Shubman gave me a sympathetic look and our fingers intertwined as I carried on
"However my growing up with my dad, I could barely feel the absence of a mother in life. He did everything he could from teaching me sport to explaining me what a period was. We were like best friends cruising through life. He was my favourite person shub."

Shubman's face fell as he realised that I used past tense when talking about dad, but he didn't interrupt my flow

"He ran a sports shop in old Delhi and he loved it, he was passionate about sport. In fact, that's when he met Virat bhai. My dad became like a mentor to him and would help him train in his free time. Little me would come home from school and rush to tell my dad and bhaiya all about my day. Then he gave it all up to move to London just so I could have better opportunities.

But we did great in The UK, we made it work. Everything was going fine until-" my voice was restricted by my sobs and I could feel my entire body shake. I felt the warmth of his comforting embrace envelop me in this moment.

"Until Cancer took him away from me Shub, exactly Six Months ago. It's left a hole in my heart, I feel his absence so much. I just want to him pull his princess into a hug and tell her it will be okay."

"Daisy, I cannot imagine what you've been through. Nothing I tell you would change the truth but remember the ones we truly love never leave us, they stay forever in our heart, thoughts and actions. Daisy your father sounds like a brave, kind man and believe me you carry on his legacy. I'm glad you could trust me with this part of your life Sania." I said as I prepared to leave because it was quite late

"Me too shub, also would you wanna stay for a coffee, we could watch something on the TV?"
"Sure my daisy."

The atmosphere lightened up a little as we watched big ang theory tucked under our blankets and cracked silly jokes.
I just wanna kiss him so bad

SHUBMAN'S POV:

I realised that she didn't wanna be alone just yet so I decided I'd stay as long as she needed me. After knowing about everything she has been through I just admired her strength and the way she handled everything with elegance.

I glanced at her, she was completely immersed in the Big Bang theory's storyline when I tucked away a strand of her hair behind her ear. She looked at me with love reflecting in her eyes, we started at each other for a couple of seconds until She leaned in to kiss me.

My lips met hers in a soft, lingering kiss. It was a moment of pure, unadulterated bliss.

I wrapped her in my embrace as the sweet intoxication of our first kiss lingered in the air savouring every moment I had with her. It was truly a very special day.

A/N:
Omg! I'm sure this chapter was a lot for you guyss!

I couldn't make it super sad because I can't see my babies feeling sad but at least Sandy's past is not a mystery anymore.
I think it is a little on the cringe side but whatever, I can't help it. I love fluff  🥹💗

Soo they had their first kiss 💋 ahh - also I'm really shit at writing kisses so I hope it was okay.
I definitely need to figure out that part of my writing.

As always to everyone reading, I hope you enjoyed. Show this book some love if you can and
Let me know if you have any suggestions!

Until next time
Vivv

Ps: I'm still cringing internally