Defy Gravity John Murphy

Chapter 5

(Izzy POV) I'm walking around camp looking for Octavia, finding her working on something. "Hey Octavia." Octavia looks at me as I sit next to her. "I'm Izzy, I'm a friend of John and Wells." I say, nervous about making a new friend. "How you handle both of them, I'll never know." Octavia jokes, "How you handle Bellamy is beyond me." I retort, Octavia laughing, I made a funny joke. "I don't know if you know, but I was locked up for a really long time. I'm still learning a lot, and I need your help." I admit. "With what?" She asks. "Feelings, I think." I say Octavia grins, "Is this about a boy?" She asks. I look away, as she squeals "Oh girl talk, I always wanted to have a girl talk. Okay what you feeling?" She asks, sitting closer to me. I look at my hands. "Um when I'm with John, I get this tingling feeling, and my stomach is all messy. When John hugs me, I feel safe, like being wrapped in a protective blanket." I confess. When we talk, I feel like I can say anything, but at the same time, nothing." I confess, looking up at Octavia, who is smiling so much her face looks like it might break. Octavia flails around, "Ahh, that is so romantic." She nearly screams. "What's romantic?" I ask, "Oh, well, it's when you feel everything you just said. When you feel that, and you think or know the other person feels the same way, then it's super romantic, and you're in love with each other." Octavia says calming down. "Huh?" I blurt out. "Love each other meaning you really really like him. More than a friend." She says. "Oh, so what do I do?" I ask. "Usually when two people like each other they... they kiss." Octavia let's out. "What's a kiss?" I ask, "When two people that like each other put there lips together. It's like a sign of affection." Octavia teaches. "Like a hug." I say. "Yay, a hug for the lips." Octavia agrees. I take in the information, "What if he doesn't like me like I like him?" I ask worried. "Then he's an idiot because your a sweetheart. Secondly, maybe just wait for him to make the first move." She says. "First move?" I question "Wait for Murphy to kiss you, then you know he like likes you, mabye loves you." She answers. "So I just wait, be patient, right?" I ask. "Be patient and if he really likes you, he will definitely kiss you. But if he doesn't kiss you or ask you about your feelings within a year, let me know so I can kick his butt for being idiot." Octavia promises. Me and Octavia laugh before hearing Jasper scream. Octavia runs off as the screams continue. I start getting flashbacks. I run out of camp, eventually sitting down against rock, trying to block out the noises Jasper is making. It reminds me of my own screams and cries in the lab. I close my eyes, covering my ears, trying to imagine myself back in my quiet cell. Looking up at the vast space out my window, my peace is ruined by another cry from Jasper. I'm sent spiraling into memories of fighting doctors, pain of syringes, and scalpels. The electric shock from the guards tasers whenever I fought off the doctors. When I feel something grab at my hands, I scream. Hearing John's voice "Hey it's me, Is, it's me, it's John." He says. I open my eyes, seeing John crouched in front of me, worry clear on his face. I cry hugging John, he hugs me back, and like I said to Octavia, I feel safe in John's arms. "What happened? Why'd you run off?" John asks. "The screaming reminded me of bad days in the lab. I just tried to block it out, but it got worse." I sob. John sits down, pulling me closer to him. "You're safe." He whispers, humming a random tune. I slowly calm down, falling asleep to John heartbeat. I wake up to John walking with me in his arms. "Hey, I'm going to bring you to my tent, okay?" John murmurs. I sleepily close my eyes again. Feeling myself laid down on something soft, I hear John whisper, "I'll be right back, Iz." I rest my eyes until I hear Jasper screaming again, with people yelling. I sit up, being in John's tent, on a soft blanket. I get out of the tent, going to the dropship to see Murphy leaving it, and he sees me. "What happened?" I ask as he walks up to me. "I tried to shut that dieing man up by putting him out of his misery." John says, glancing at the dropship. "J, don't put Jasper's blood on your hands." I demand. "His yelling is driving us both crazy." He points out. "Its just yelling, it can't hurt us. Let's just wait it out, it's not worth killing anyone over." I say. John rolls his eyes "How are you so smart?" He says with smirk, I chuckle as we start to walk away from the dropship but we hear a loud blaring noise. "What was that?" I ask. John glances at me, looking around, people start running into the dropship, being chased by a giant cloud of green yellow smoke. Me and John join the others in the dropship. The door closing, people rushing around to close any holes. "What was that out there?" Murphy asks, people coughing and treating their wounds. "Huge fog came out of nowhere. Everyone's skin started burning." A girl coughs out. Eventually, after the fog fades, Clarke somehow starts healing Jasper, making him not scream anymore. I'm sitting by the fire when Octavia sits next to me. "Your friend John, tried to kill Jasper." She complains "I know, I talked him down, it's partly my bad. I kind of broke down outside of camp. The screams were making me remember bad stuff. John found me and brought me back to camp. John was just trying to help me. I'm sorry." I confess, Octavia wraps her arm around me "Hey, it's not your fault. If anyone's to blame, it's the grounders and Murphy's temper. I didn't know Jaspers screaming was bothering you like that. The important thing now is that Jasper is healing." Octavia tells.