THE BOY WHO TRUSTED NOBODY (boyxboy)

Chapter 17

Hey guys, I bet this will come off as a bit shocking to most of you, but well, I thought I would just mess things up a bit ;;;;;
And spoiler!! There's a reason this chapter is in Sam's POV, but you'll discover it yourself later ;))))

Sam POV

'My parents... Nobody wants me. They didn't want me either. They don't care about me, nobody does, I feel worthless. I don't even know why I'm saying this to you, I have to go now, I'm sorry'-

His voice was just a mere whisper now, tired out from the infinite sobs and from so much else I had no idea about...
He never dared to look at me, bring his gaze up to meet mine, his grey eyes always looking attentively at his shoes.

I didn't even let him finish his sentence, I couldn't understand it, or maybe I didn't want to.
How could such a guy feel worthless? How could his parents not care about him?

I mean if mine.... If just.... If only.... Ah, never mind...

And what if his parents didn't care about him? I was there, couldn't he see it?

It was at that moment that a sudden realization struck my mind. What if I was the only one believing in our 'friendship at first sight'? What if I was the only one caring?

But then I looked at him, his face completely drenched by his tears and his eyes entirely covered by his blue bangs, his body now seeming even more petite than it already was, so defenseless and easy to hurt...

'I'm your best friend Sky, that's why you're telling me. I don't ever wanna hear you say once more you're worthless okay? I need you, everybody needs you, and your parents do too, even if they may not show it. But I NEED YOU'

I was shocked. Words kept escaping from my mouth without control, like a rock crumbling down an apparently endless downhill...

'I NEED YOU' Those words kept repeating over and over in my mind, torturing my thoughts. What did I exactly mean by that? And how could I know if I never knew in the first place I was going to say such a thing?

I could see the confusion in his empty grey eyes, shyly looking at me from under his fringe...

Unwillingly, I stretched my arm forward and grasped his hand, obliging him to face me.

Meanwhile confusion and hurt kept fighting inside my brain. Was I so useless to him he didn't even consider me? Was I so unreliable he refused to lean on me when he needed to do so? And what was I going to say? I knew I cared about him for a fact, but to what extent precisely? Could it be........?

Without even realizing it, my mouth once again spoke of his own free will.

'Sky, listen, I have to tell you something. I....-'

I never got to finish the sentence. What was I going to say? The only thought of the many things that I could have said unwillingly scared me, but at the same time I was just as curious as I was frightened. What was it I was going to tell him? Could it be.....I felt something for him?.......

OF COURSE NOT!

I knew it must have been something else, I mean, how can I be crushing on my 'new' best friend, right? But I couldn't shake that awkward feeling from me.

And then a sudden slim pale figure with a mass of blonde hair stopped near us, painting (almost dying I would add); it was Nate.

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I had been avoiding Sky through the whole walk back to school... I kind of felt guilty about it, I could see him peeking at me through his blue and black hair, and I could see the confused look in his eyes, but how was I going to make him feel better if I was the one messed up in the first place?