The Journey Towards Understanding & Togetherness❤️

Part-3- Meerab's POV

LOVE is the whole thing. We are only pieces.
-Rumi

I changed and was lying on the bed. I thought.

I made all his favorites with my own hands with so much dedication. This is what I got this he just asked me to jump off . Is this his love. My love needs poof even at the cost of my life. Wow. Tears flowed uncontrollably. This heart is stubborn even after breaking into a million pieces it doesn't understand. It does what it wants.

What does he think of me a toy.
He said I'm no one in the past
Now he claims to love me, and now
He asked me to die.

It seems like no one wants me in their life. Am I that bad that I don't deserve love. My parents abandoned me. My biological father didn't accept me in the past. Nobody here is concerned about me except maryam. Maabegum doesn't leave a chance to taunt. Murtasim, why do you have pretend that u love me. I'm a fool. After seeing his gestures, I fell into the trap.

Then I remembered I met him after he left for London. It's been more than 1 and a half a year. tayajaan suffered cardiac arrest, and he left to the eternal world.

We reached the haveli and murtasim reached the next he was like a zombie.
He had no emotion in his. He was rigid like a stone. He didn't talk or say anything. He hugged his mother and sister on either side who were devastated. Tears made their way of seeing him like this. After the formalities It was the ceremony of Pagdi Ceremony of Murtasim The Next Khan to the entire hyderabad "THE KHAN MURTASIM KHAN. But he had no emotions. He did what was asked, badeabbu, and Baba was on his side just like a pillar on either side. I and haya were with maryam, and mumma was with maabegum.

After the pagdi, everyone went back to the haveli. I was in the kitchen drinking water. He came to grab cold water he is extremely sensitive, yet he wants to drink cold water. Our eyes met after months, and still, he made me shiver. He immediately turned and grabbed the bottle and was about to turn but I called from behind " Murtasim" he looked into my eyes but his the most expressive eyes were empty. "I'm sorry for the loss. I'm sure u would make Tayajaan proud." I said. He took a step towards me and said, "There is no need to show ur unnecessary concern no one is around," and he marched out, leaving me behind.
He didn't change a bit he still Hates me maybe more.

The next day, we left karachi, and he was nowhere to be seen. He went village. Then I went back to my routine. I used to post about my college life. My friends in social media share stories. I try not to think about him, enjoy with friends,study, spend time with mumma baba, read books, that's it. I heard from Baba that he stays in the village most of the time and hardly goes home and
He went back to London just to give his final exam. Whenever we visited, he would be nowhere. Does he hate me that much.

College was fun. I spent some amazing time there. Saba is such a best friend and rohail i always considered him as my friend. I never knew he had feelings for me. I never saw him more than a friend. He is mad, though he forcefully got me to his place, but still. I shouldn't have told him about the contract. I'm such a fool. I don't know what happened to me that I blurted it out.

Marriage and contract........

After that incident, I didn't meet murtasim until the day I beat saima baji's husband in the middle of the road.
Someone grabbed the stick I turned to look who that audacious person was. Oh, none other than KHAN MURTASIM KHAN. He glared me to death, pulling the stick close to him, also pulling me closer in the process. Our breaths mingled after years, and he still smelled the same. He grabbed my hand and made me sit in his car even if badeabbu was with him scolding me.

I always make sure He doesn't have a slight hint of my feelings. He is ordering me in my own house. He wants i should respect follow orders like women his house. But Mr. khan, I neither respect nor disrespect u have no hold in my life. Just because of these khans, my baba was about to slap me. I'm these people. He said he was embarrassed because of me. I have no idea why every decision in our life has to be dealt with by maabegum who are they after tayajaan maabegum and badeabbu are overruling us. I'm sick of it.