The Journey Towards Understanding & Togetherness❤️

Part-4 Meerab's POV

"Your task is not to seek for love, but merely to seek and find all the barriers within yourself that you have built against it."
-Rumi

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We were driving back to Hyderabad when I saw a dargah. I asked murtasim to stop saying I wanted to pray. It's almost Fajr, so I went in and cried my heart out, seeking Allah to guide me to show me the path to get peace. I opened my eyes to see Murtasim seeing me with atmost care, and the adaan was said indirectly the acceptance of Allah saying to accept him.

I walked to find a baba stopping me, telling me that whatever is gonna happen, everything is for good. Everything is good. You are gonna attain the people u lost and yearn. Allah doesn't leave his people. His mercy his always on us. He gave a thread to make a wish and tie.

I went and tied, making a wish of giving me the strength. To keep my loved ones safe. I opened to find murtasim standing on the opposite side, praying. I looked at him for a few minutes. And left.

I was standing against the pillar to find peace.
Murtasim came panting heavily as if he ran a marathon. He thought I ran away. I said, "Don't need to worry. I won't run away. I understood the reality." He said he would talk to his mother. Let's leave is late was my answer. Nothing is gonna change.

We reached the home to find everyone tense for not finding me. I said I'm ready to marry Murtasim. Everyone was happy, and murtasim was shocked. I went to the room and was crying. After some time, murtasim came asking me not to cry, give him some days to talk to everyone. Why I wanted to marry him when this is my father's home. I replied that when he didn't have the courage to say anything, I took the charge and said I wanted to marry him, and the reason to marry is me being homeless and orphan." And finally I said if this was her father's home she doesn't have to marry him to stay. She needs a shelter above her head. He said fine let's get married and see how much we can stay together."

He asked, "Do I still hate him?" I wish I could, but I couldn't was my thought. He again asked me to tell, looking in his eyes. I wish he could read my eyes. But I said a moment remove the hatred, and that was when he forwarded his hand when I was alone. He asked me not to cry and went giving his consent to the marriage.

The next day was Mayon. i was sitting. Then Haya came and sat beside me like she was the bride. She took a cone and started drawing in her hands. I always knew she had her eyes on murtasim but never knew she could go to any extent. Maryam came with sagun mehendi. I mocked haya, which is only for the bride. Everyone came and is enjoying except the bride.

Even though my love is now mine. It is forcefully made relation. What if he is in love with haya. Murtasim came, and maabegum asked him to sit beside me, asking haya to get up. This made me unknowingly happy. Because haya always made me insecure regarding Murtasim even though back in the day, I know he isn't mine still. Maabegum took our nazar. And asked to dance on the occasion. She danced while crying. Murtasim was nonchalant. I was a little happy seeing her.

Maabegum blessed us for our happiness and the blessings of children. My heart skipped a beat. Children Murtasim and mine. Unknowingly, heat rushed up to my face. Cheeks turned red. I managed to compose myself looking down. I have dreamt unknowingly being his wife, his children's mother. I gave a side look to him to see his reaction. He was stoic and impassive. This made me realize he has no feelings for me . He hates me that he is being forcefully binded in a relationship with me. Tears welled up, but I managed to compose myself. I don't know how this relationship will lead. Let's see, I have faith in my God.

Haya came and took nazar on murtasim, and she talked rubbish. Murtasim was looking at haya with rage. I asked won't she apply ubtan on me?" She asked who am I. I replied to haya's cousins future wife. He looked shocked and was staring at me with surprise for my words. I don't bother to look at him. Haya said. Then Murtasim's bride will apply the ubtan and apply it on herself. "Besharmi ke liye bhi had hoti hai."