forgive me please

⚠️chapter 3⚠️

⚠️TW⚠️
-PANIC ATTACKS
-CURSING
-SLIGHT SELF HARM
-SELF HATRED

Kiply POV

I kinda feel bad for what I said but he deserves it, he destroyed everything! I called lynix and told him everything. He just laughed and said ,,deserved! He needed that reality check!!" I laughed with him but couldn't help but feel guilty. I left the chat and went home, well if you can call it that, and thought about today's events. I wonder how doni feels rn...

Ignore spelling, I'm German and have dyslexia

Lynix POV

Kiply left the server

I got confused but didn't question it anymore. I shrugged and also went... Home? It's a bunch of blocks now... IT DOESN'T EVEN HAVE A CEILING!!! FUCK YOU DONI!!!!
I sigh and start to re-build my house. When I was done I placed my bed down and went to sleep

Doni POV

The next morning I woke up with a bad headache, I went to my bathroom and looked into the mirror, I frowned as I saw my face.
,,I'm so ugly..." I whisper and look at my bloodshot and puffy eyes. I undress and get ready to go showering. I looked at the full body mirror and point out all my flaws
,,no wonder they hate me..." I mumbles and jump into the shower.
After the shower I go back to my room and dress into a hoodie and joggings, it's 20°C outside. I check who's online rn

DoniBobes
Lynixity
Ligeriscool
Rageplaysgames
Kiply
Skiddzie
Theinfamousquiff

I freeze as I see who's all online, I'm having a hard time deciding if I want to go out or not. I decide to go because I want to see if rage talks to me, I only broke a little part of his house. I sigh and get ready to go

DoniBobes joined the server

Rage POV

Im building the broken part of my house rn as i get the message. I freeze, I'm not live rn
,,oh no! No no no no! Doni will ruin everything again!" I panicked and quickly re-build everything, after that I ran upstairs and hid.

DoniBobes: Rage where r u ?

Rageplaysgames: why

DoniBobes: I wanna talk to you

Rageplaysgames: nope

DoniBobes: pleasseeeee

Rageplaysgames: nop

DoniBobes: please join my call :(

Rageplaysgames: fine

Rage joins Doni's call

,,what you want?" Rage ask anoyed
,,chill, just wanna talk."
,,why?" He asks with a scoff
,,just wanted to see if you still talk to me"
,,I already regret talking with you"
,,what does that mean!?" I ask playfully hurt
,,you're a stupid 'friend' you always ruin everything! Of course I don't want to talk to you!"
,,w-what?" I internally slap myself for stuttering
,,you heard me you fucker!"
I was shocked, that isn't how rage usually acts.
,,nothing to say? NOTHING!? YOU USUALLY ALWAYS HAVE ANYTHING TO SAY!"
He leaves the call right after saying that.
Am I really that horrible?
Do I seriously don't deserve them?
Am I really that useless?

I continue to overthink without realising my breathing is picking up. I feel tears well up in my eyes as I ran home, I locked the door as the tears started to fall and I Jank at my hoodie because it feels suffocating. I quickly pull it off and throw it somewhere, I get dizzy and start to claw at my skin, not realising I'm scratching my skin open. After what feels like hours my breathing is getting slower, I'm at the edge of passing out rn. I hear knocking at my door but can't move not speak. I'm leaning against my bed and have a good view of the door, but the tears in my eyes blur my vision. Someone burst into my room but I only see black.

Who is in his room?
It was a bad chapter 😅 sorry