Serenity Praise

My Best Friend - Part 1

Wanted to grow up
To see me and my friends
Smiling as grown-ups altogether
Dreamt we are living as
Professionals and rich adults
chatting and travelling the same
And much more

Never knew
Those grown-ups
Will be total strangers
Never knew
The day excusing to see you
Will come
Never knew
All those dreams were
The dumbest of all

Grew in different directions
Found new friends
Moved away
Maybe marry and not invite
Even for the wedding
Though I dreamt of being her
Bridesmaid
Maybe an invitation to stare at a crowd
I don't know at all
Though in my dreams
I was next to her cheering
And laughing fixing her bouquet

Never knew she'd be busy
So busy that sparing a few minutes
For a conversation
Become such a big event

I felt the same once before
After the Scholarship at 5
Lived my dark age for a few years
Until I met you all
Now I'm again at the place you
Found me
Where dark and loneliness rule...
Didn't cry before
Was too young to understand
Today I'm tearing up
Since I get it all now

Should I move on too?
Should I give up on my forever?
Are we parting ways
Without even a goodbye
Why others are different
I see Insta pics they are partying
Why we are not
Give me excuses
Give me lies
Tell me the reasons,
I'm going to believe it.
Tell me it's not,
Then go far away without blinking.
Why this ghosting
There is not even a second to beg
To stay
One last time

I'm breaking
I'm crying
I'm confused
Cause I believed in you
Because I imagined forever
Friendships with you
Now I'm here alone
Since my legs are too numb
And my heart is frozen
To move away
From my last best friend
I had

A few minutes later...
It was all my imagination
And one of us will be the other's bridesmaid in the future... I'm sure