honestly wtf

I Am Sorry I Couldn't Be The Perfect Child

he gave me a home, food, and protection.he gave me my life. BUT THAT DOESNT MEAN HE CONTROLS EVERYTHING I DO AND CAN SAY WHAT EVER HE WANTS TO ME. I've been told a lot of mean things but when it's from him I just just shut down.he cannot call me an idiot, if he hears complaints of me ok , and if I loose my stupid room key ITS NOT THE END OF THE WORLD. I literally cannot stand the idiotic things he says to me. If I am playing around with someone and accidentally talk higher than usual, he does not have to scream at me only. and he screams at me only and says its to warn others not to, well basically act like me. I am judged by the person I've known literally my entire life. I cry a lot cause of him and in public too cause I just can't handle it. Once he saw and asked why I was crying,obviously I don't want to tell him he's the reason so I just ignore it. he thinks that I'm crying for no reason cause this retard can't take a hint.he apologizes but I don't forgive him. Why? CAUSE I KNOW ITS GONNA HAPPEN AGAIN LATER. I didn't write this chapter just cause one time this has happen. It always happens.

i am sorry I couldn't be the perfect child