honestly wtf

Deal With It

today she is basically my best friend. But two weeks ago she was the bane of my existence. She has nerves I tell you. She treats me like crap. It's suppose to be me and her. Not me and her and her friends. I can care less about them. Sure I've known them all of the forever of my life. But no.

I make plans. I get excited. She just turns it all down. But for the oddest reason in the world it's all my fault. I just want to be with her. With her comes everyone else. I don't like that deal. I don't need it.

So whatever. I speak up for myself. Nononnooooo. Worst decision ever made. Cause I control her life. It's all for me. She wants to do something. They are all super ideas that I wouldn't mind doing. But supposedly I said no. In a disrespectful way I might add.

She can get me to my highest point to where I can take it.  You know I shut up. Especially when it comes to personal stuff. But no. She's not like this. She tells every person possible. She might think I don't know, except I do.

I ran away. Just from her. On the week of her birthday. Like she deserves anything from me. I do from her. An apology for being a little peice of shit around people we know. I don't really care, I don't have an image to keep up. But are you seriously kidding me. So I ran away. I was really stupid.

I can't even believe that I apologized. I didn't have to. And then on top of that I give her only the best birthday present ever. That's not me. But you know what. Forget it. It happened why would I hold a grudge. It's gonna happen again and I'm gonna just have to deal with it.

(( I have really moved on and everything between this person and I is ok. I just haven't updated in a while and I'm really sorry about that))