DAYLIGHT
CHAPTER 1
When I was a teenager, I always thought that maybe, just maybe, my feelings for her weren't deep. It was a phase; I even convinced myself about it many times. But, as time went by, I realized that those feelings were growing deep inside. It was not just a phase, but a whole different kind of emotion that grew within me.
Nakakatawa dahil iniiwasan ko pa ang ideyang iyon. Inaalis sa isip ko at pinapaniwala ang sarili na hindi totoo. But the thing is, I was just fooling myself all along. I know that deep inside, I have already accepted it. The feelings I have been keeping for years are slowly killing me until I can't stop them from pouring outside of my whole being.
Randyl Sullivan, my girl bestfriend since middle school, is the girl I fell in love with. But she didn't know that. And I want to keep my feelings for her, not because I'm afraid of rejection but because she's very important to me, and I don't want to lose her.
Minsan nahihirapan din akong itago ang nararamdaman. Katulad ngayon, she's ranting about her stressful week at work. Sa katitig ko sa kaniya ay mas lalo lamang siyang gumaganda sa paningin ko. Minsan, napapaisip na rin ako na baka sanhi lang ito ng pagiging delusional ko or sadyang baliw lang talaga ako. Baliw kakatago sa totoong nararamdaman.
A snap of her fingers brings me back to reality. Her eyebrows furrowed, and she stared at me with confusion in her eyes. “Are you okay?” With concern in her voice, she asked. I smiled at her, reassuring her that everything was fine.
“Free ka ba next saturday?” tanong niya.
I nodded. “Yeps. Why?” She smiled at me. “Let's visit the beach!” She enthusiastically said, eyes glimmered in pure joy and excitement.
I nodded again, biting my lower lips so I could stop myself from smiling. “Sure. Wala rin naman akong gagawin next week for sure. Any plans? Baka gusto mong dagdagan?” I asked as I took a sip on my Iced Americano. Umiling siya bago nagsalita ulit.
It's actually Sunday today, and we spent it talking the whole day. She loves to talk, and I always like to listen to her talk. Her voice is soft. It always felt like she's singing a lullaby, even though she's not. She's a good singer, by the way.
Sunday passed by so quickly, and it's already Monday morning. Maaga akong nagising at nag asikaso since maaga rin ang alis ko. Christopher, the CEO and my guy bestfriend, will be having his meeting today at 9 a.m. Maaga dahil aalis din siya papuntang Paris pagkatapos. He's a hardworking and busy man with no romantic interest in anyone.
After I grabbed my morning Ice Americano at Sunshine, I was automatically heading to my office. And papers are already there, greeting me a 'good morning'. After signing a few papers, I headed to Chris' office.
Seungmin and Minho greeted me when I finally sat down beside them. Chris is holding a portfolio and stands in front of us as he starts his speech of the day.
Monday is always a bad day for us. Kaya naman wala akong ginawa buong araw kung 'di ay magpirma ng mga papeles, kumausap ng mga iilang importanteng tao at umupo sa loob ng opisina ng ilang oras.
Time flies so quickly, and Wednesday came. On Wednesday evening, I received a text from Randyl.
brat
choose one for me please?
which one is the best for me?
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I looked at each photo she sent and replied to her, even though my heart shattered a little bit. She replied a 'thanks' after.
“Hindi ka pa din umaamin?” Seungmin, who came out of nowhere; sat in front of me, asked. Ibinababa ko ang cellphone bago tinignan ang baliw na nasa harap ko.
His eyes were filled with curiosity as she stared at me, waiting for my answer. “What are you doing here, stupid? ”I asked him instead. He snorted.
“Tagal na niyan, dude. Hanggang ngayon wala ka pa ding plano umamin? Mabulok nalang ata 'yang nararamdamn mo hindi mo pa rin ilalabas.”
I rolled my eyes. “Nahanap mo na ba si Yunmi?” Tanong ko para maiba ang topic.
“I think I'm going insane! How do I find a woman who keeps on hiding herself from me?! But I'm still searching for her. Wala pang balita si Changbin.” We both sighed. I stared at my phone, thinking about the message she sent me a while ago.
Seungmin stood up from his seat and grabbed his coat. “Take a risk, Mr. Yang Jeongin; bago ka pa maunahan ng iba.” aniya at naglakad palabas. I stared at his back and sighed.
He's right, but I couldn't force myself to confess. I want to do it when the time is right. I don't want to take a risk that I might regret my whole life. I hope she is still there when the right time comes.
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