Love Is In The Lyrics

TWO

After a few drinks on both my mother and I's part our nerves seemed to be but a mere distant memory as we were laughing without a care. The ceremony was taking forever so they couldn't blame us for trying to get some type of entertainment, Madison finally decided to join with some kid I'd never seen before. They both laughed at their own jokes and videos on their phones, ignoring everything happening around them.

Like they were living some kids dreams right now, this was something most people would never get to experience. Yet they're more interested in their phones and whatever world they've created there. But what should I care, as long as she isn't making smart ass remarks I was fine with whatever she did.

A man walking onto the stage gave me the indication it was about to start, snapping my fingers at my sister as a sign to put away her phone and pay attention. My mother doing the same, both girls didn't put up a fight surprisingly as they decided to eat some of the extravagant desserts sitting before them.

I took a sip from the tall glass I had glued to my hand, at this point it was the only thing keeping me sane from the anxiety and nervousness.

Knowing I'm up against two other people and a band, which I don't see how they qualify as a "New Artist" but I don't make the rules. That was seven people alone I was up against. Me, some random girl from Kentucky who got lucky in a mall, who still has an accent and gets made fun of online over it. What did I had against these people to make me win?

It felt like nothing to me, I still didn't even understand how I got nominated to begin with. I'd only released 6 songs and 'Watch Me On The Highway' was my biggest hit, hitting it off with the younger generation and on TikTok. That still didn't make me feel worthy of all the support, yea this is all I've ever dreamed of but why did I deserve to be here over someone else?

I took another sip of my drink as the man began talking, drowning out his words with my own thoughts.

Maybe I did deserve this, all I've done since coming to LA was work my ass off. Putting in every hour I could toward my career, sacrificing time with my family to further my career.

If anyone should be nominated it's me.

With my newfound confidence I sat proudly during the other nominations. Smiling and clapping proudly for everyone who won, knowing they were also in my position, working their ass off.

My category was only two away and my nerves started to creep back up, seeing the screen play a clip of each nominee. A snippet from my music video played briefly, bringing a smile to my face before it's wiped right off at the next video.

Seeing the band who's also nominated, Dusk & Dawn. Four dickheads with a God complex, acting as if the world owes them something for existing. Yea they were all relatively good looking but their ego ruined anything they had going for them.

Hearing them clang their glasses together and cheer from afar as they flash the screen, drowning them out with my own drink

All of their dark black hair on display as they head-bang on the screen. Their music wasn't bad, rock and roll just wasn't my taste in particular. The the lead singer was the worst of them all, multiple arrests along with God knows how much else he didn't get caught doing, Stang. His real name was Dawson, and man was he a piece of work.

We'd had a run in at Metro when I had first got signed, meeting with Michael the CEO to go over a few things, but not before Stang stumbled in drunk off his ass reeking of weed. Ending the meeting short as I had to call later that night to make sure everything was okay. 

He was the kind of person who the media loved, he never stayed out of their headlines with all the crazy shit he and his and we're constantly doing. Whether it be harassing police officers and security guards to wrecking every hotel room they stayed in, leaving copious amounts of money and drugs behind.