The Killer Is Our Brother [MygxBts / Brotherly ff]

TKIOB- Destroy

"Did you do it somewhere else too?" Jin asked with an uncertain look.
I knew he did not trust me with this anymore. But honestly, keeping my suicidal self behind, I never tried to do anything until now.

"You-believe me or n-ot but this wa-s the first time" I said hoping he would accept it.

"Idk- whether to trust or not but by your look I could say it was the first time and THANK GOD I came" he retorted with a sigh.

"But-honestly why did you stop me? I anyways harm others. It won't be bad if I do it to myself too"
The words slipped out of my mouth giving a scowl on Jin's face.

"Oh I see. So you think it's going to be all good if you harm yourself. Correct yeah? YOU ARE FREAKING WRONG MISTER AND IF YOU DON'T GET THIS THOUGHT OUTTA YOUR HEAD, I WON'T BE ALLOWING YOU TO USE YOUR GUNS AND KNIFES AND LETS SEE WHO IN THE WORLD CAN OPPOSE ME" He ended while panting, breathing heavily.

I knew it was out of concern but my mind was too much of a bastard to understand love.

He is lying. You know that.

I don't know anything.

After a few minutes of silence there was a knock at the door.
"Come in" I said as Jhope peeped.

"Jin Hyung? What are you doing?" He asked still not bothering to come inside.

"Just... Nothing we were talking" Jin said with a hint of sadness. Getting his answer, the boy closed the door shut again.

"You know what? The last thing I would say to you is whether you treat me as your Hyung or not but you ARE my brother no-fucking-matter what. So I am not letting you go far where you would'nt live a day without piercing your skin. If you consider of me as a human, Stop right here. I will check your hands every morning" I nodded unwillingly as Jin exited the room.

I fucked up a big time. He is sad because of me. Noone of them consider me as their brother. Why am I even living?

The thoughts flooded one after the other but I couldn't anymore have the courtesy to hurt myself after what that old man said to me now. I was helpless.

A tear escaped on my realising that I needed someone to comfort me but I was all alone by myself.

"Ahhhhhhhh!" I screamed grabbing my hair.

Kill yourself bastard.

Stop.

You are upsetting people.

No

Yes you are. You know it. Your own brother calls you monster. What more assurance do you need?

Yes fucking yes.

My head started throbbing a bit now. I wanted to destroy everything and most importantly myself.

"I AM A MONSTER" I screamed destroying the room.

"I NEED TO DIE"
Noone would hear me. Afterall the room is sound proof you know? Tsk.

When the room was all good in my eyes, I fell down laying on the ground with a smile on my face.

Some pieces of the shattered glass pricked my back,but  I couldn't care about it at the moment cause I had my pleasure in destruction.

I will be the most happiest person when I destroy my whole self.

You gonna have to watch me do it ok?

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I know it was shit but I am so so sorry about it.

I will upload again in some days.

Just please let me know how it was.

Bye bye.