What About Love? A Color Purple Story

Chapter 5: Burn

CELIE 

"Fuck." I's hear Shug say under her breath. I assume that means I am doing something right. My left hand cups her neck and my right up her dress. 

"Faster." Shug say. Even underneath me she still finds a way to dominate, so I lowered my head to her right ear and I whisper "Patience my love." 

Shug hated a tease. I know she did. Felt almost disrespectful to her, like you's was lying to her when you did it, but I found the whole thing amusing. 

"Fuck patience, fuck me." She's whispering but it's clear and sharp just like when she yelling. I's have a hand over her mouth now and she takes one of her hands and places it on top of mine. 

"Patience." I repeat myself

As I am fingering, I start to feel Shug's hands creep to where mine was. Her dominance wanting its turn. I caught her hand. I's rested my hand in hers, palm to palm and brought it back up to meet the headboard. "Miss Avery, I'm not gonna keep repeating myself." 

I started to feel the tension release in her body and I's in full control now. Each one of her breaths deeper than the last, her lips pierced by her teeth and her eyes so far back it looked like her soul was gone. And right before she finish, I abruptly stop. She looks a little betrayed, I's look her in the eyes, almost to say "trust me." 

2 fingers go back inside and 1 throwing a party on the outside of her own, until eventually Shug roared and I proudly smiled. 

Shug out of breath now. She say "Not bad, Miss Celie." I release a shy giggle. "Thanks I guess." I say still smiling. 

"Round 2!" Shug sits up. With my thighs already sitting on each side of her waist she pushes my shoulders and chest down and hovers over me and as I do that, my legs spring out from underneath me. She takes each leg and lays it on her shoulders. Her head now in between my legs. 

"Take it off." She tell me and I's listen. 

She'd tease, like I did her. She'd spell my name with her tongue, she'd suck me all the way dry. And she'd do it while making sure I's feel safe. In a matter of seconds I was in heaven again. Floating away. All time was lost. There was nothing wrong in the world anymore. No pain. Just joy and love. 

THE NEXT MORNING 

Early birds chirp. Vision blurry, then clear. Sound muffled then clear. I begin to stand, or attempt to. My body aches but in the best way. But when I finally take in my surroundings, I notice she is not here. "Shug?" She not in bed with me anymore. I assumed she was in the bathroom or went downstairs. 

But she wasn't in the bathroom. And right before I's move to go check downstairs, I see a letter on the side of the bed. "Celie", written on front. 

"Grand Rising, Miss Celie!"  the words read. "I went into town to buy you something to cook breakfast with, our friends and family ate just about everything you had in that kitchen the other night. I love you, I'll see you soon." 

I finish reading, with a sharp quick but deep exhale. I hadn't realized I was holding it to begin with. 

I think...I worries about that a lot. There being a day when Shug leaves me and she really don't come back. She's left me before. The most painful when she left for Mississippi after our first night together, then came's back married. 

So now my heart skips a little beat every time I don't know where she is. I try and take myself out my dark train of thought and start getting dressed and ready for work.