I think we'll be alright

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                                  Marns POV
I felt content when I woke up, in a good mood. I tried my best not to think of what was lingering in the back of my thoughts.

My mom was really happy that I hadn't been upset anymore and she sent me off with a muffin but I took an extra one for Andy. He was actually able to walk with me today, he took a while to come out to the walking path but I was glad to see him. He was so thankful to receive the muffin.

It was a good day, I was smiling constantly, laughing, and joking with Andy and even his friends. I never talked to new people but Andy made sure I felt included and was introduced to them. One of his friends Lennox was gay and trans. I talked to him the most out of all of his friends, he was pretty cool. I kinda wanted to know more about him being gay but I knew I couldn't just ask.

Me and Andy went back to the shopping plaza. "I can't believe I got a job!" Andy beamed. "I'm so exited for you!" I told him. He had his arm around my shoulder on our way to the neighborhood, I felt really bubbly in my stomach. I hope it's not a stomach bug, I can't miss school.

I enjoyed his arm around me, he didn't take it off until we sat on the bench but he put his arm back on it.

"Today was a good day." Andy said looking at the trees. "Yeah, it was." I Said then chattering my teeth. "Are you cold?" He asked. "No, no, I'm fine" I rubbed my arms. Andy took of his jacket and put it on me, I felt bubbly in my stomach again and it didn't go away for a long time. Andy let me keep the jacket, I laid in my bed with the jacket on. It smelled like him a lot, like pine, and something else. I started to wish Andy was with me now, I don't know why but I still had the bubbly feeling in my stomach.

Andy's POV

Marn was really happy today, and so was I. I was finally about to head into the direction of getting the hell out of here.

Anyways, Marn has come out his shell a bit, he didn't talk to anyone besides me until I introduced my friends.

I really saw a future with Marn, I tried not to think about what kind of future. My dad always told me being gay was wrong and I should never think or act on these thoughts. The church told me it was wrong.
, my whole family told me it was wrong.

I did act on my homosexual thoughts when I was twelve, this boy and I had some sort of a romantic relationship. We didn't know what we where doing and we were having fun, until my dad found out and told the boys parents. I don't know what happened to the him but my dad beat me and sent me to conversion camp.

I try not to think about it for to long. It was the worst thing that happened to me. I had other relationships after that. Even at the conversion camp. By then I learned that I had to keep it secret.

I liked Marn a lot, more than I'd admit. I did want a romantic relationship with him, he was so special to me and I didn't want to ruin our friendship. I wish I could tell him how I felt, how much he meant to me, but I had to pretend. I did that a lot, pretended like I didn't care so I wouldn't get hurt or in trouble. Its also hard for me to express how I feel to someone. I buried my head into my knees, " I need to get a grip." I told myself  " What the fuck is wrong with me?" My dad couldn't find out about this, he would beat the brakes off of me then send me to camp again. I dont know what I would do if I had to go back.

                                     Marns POV

The next day when I woke up I was so anxious to see Andy. A knot formed in my stomach, I didn't know why i was so anxious about seeing him. I was walking but jumped when I felt a heavy hand on my shoulder, " Hey, Marn! Did I scare you?" He asked, " Yes, Yes you did." I said as I put a hand onto my chest. "I'm sorry, I was just exited to see you!" He said. I smiled so hard I turned away so he couldn't see my face. It was red and my heart beating, " Exited, to see me?!" I thought. "Why am I reacting Like this?" I thought "What's wrong with me?"