I would think about that dream everyday. I would constantly stalk his reposts on TikTok, trying to see if there was anything that hinted him having a crush. There was nothing. They were all about basketball or Fortnite. Even though I knew there was nothing new I would check everyday. I eventually started reposting things about him hoping that he would see them. I made a folder on TikTok about things that specifically applied to him. I would hope that he's as much of a stalker that I am. I hoped that he would look for me at school just like I did. I hoped he would be thinking of me and check my reposts. I would check my own reposts and make sure there was nothing that would make me look weird. This went on for a very long time.
The same year that Tristan joined a girl named Claire joined. She was boy crazy, we were friends at the beginning of the year but drifted apart. Eventually she found out who I liked and yelled it out. Unfortunately, he was standing very close to us when she yelled it out. My heart sank, he was going to find out and I didn't want him to find out then. I snapped at her, I rarely snap at anyone unless I'm very upset (my eyes glow red when I'm mad 😈🐺). Claire wasn't very liked by the rest of the class because she was rather loud and made a lot of drama. I just felt like sharing that.
The rest of seventh grade I spent staring at him from afar and observing him. That sounds really creepy but I didn't mean it like that, I'm just a girl after all. Eventually we approached the end of 7th grade and nothing happened between us. I was super sad on the last day of school before summer. I wouldn't be able to see him for a whole summer. Over the summer I would constantly make up fake scenarios just to pass the time. Over the summer one of my friends, Dunia, moved close to where I lived and we biked along the bay front almost everyday. I did very much enjoy this time because I was with my friend but it was also for another reason. Tristan was very interested in biking so biking made me feel like I was close to him somehow. Maybe he would be biking at the same time, just maybe... but that wasn't reality.
