I am Aware But I don't know How to Help Myself

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There was a young girl who lived in a small town where she slowly grew up simply in happiness like any other child, her family was not rich they're poor. A tiny house is only enough for them. A house where they can sleep and bond together. She lived lavishly, she is a girl who is so spoiled by her father. The Father was the one taking care of the children while the mother was the one who do the work to earn money. She was like any other child a naught rebellious child who loves to annoy anyone especially her siblings.

Years till came finally she is in the right age to be put in school to learn some stuff. She became more naughty she kept on escaping her home every 12 noon just to play around the neighborhood. She made a lot of friends just like any elementary children who have a lot of friends, loves to learn and play every day. Till Elementary Graduations came and finally graduated with a smiling face. Taking a lovely picture with her parents. Now moving to Highschool changes her life.

In 7th grade was one yet a hard journey for her as she was only an average student. Her family became strict to her for thinking that their daughter might have a lover and they dont want their child to go in the wrong way the only want her to focus on her studies. Some problem arises regarding to her grades.

In 8th grade she felt that it became more boring and school was not inspiring and amusing anymore she love dancing but she cannot seem to find the passion in high school to do anything she love. The fire inside her slowly diminished as she felt the unfair favoritism of the teachers to those students whom are kind of rich. In the middle of her Eight grade journey her father unfortunately died. She cried once but she felt okay as she still has her mother.

In 9th grade she was a little bit of unstable as she never felt this kind of longing and painful emotions every time she saw students together with their own father, it upsets her whenever she some hurtful words about some students complaining about their father. Her journey was kind of interesting as she met new classmates and meet some new friends whom who shares some same interest as her who only finds that reading novels and comics are the only things who can make her feel happy as she just lost a fragment of colors in her Pandemic came and everyone is Isolated in their homes not like any other people who was having the greatest peaceful time of their life. She was in despair as she takes care of her Moms health is slowly deteriorating she cannot find her self laying in bed all day to relax, no she cannot relax, for almost 2 years since pandemic life.

Before pandemic starts he father died just after her fathers Birthday & Death Anniversary. In exactly11th of August her mom gave up and finally toke her final last breath. She whom was crying together with her sibling yelling for help. They arrived at the hospital hoping that the doctors will still save her mom. But reality always hurt.

Her Mom Died.

She wants to scream in anguish for her loss. The pain she felt when she holds and hugs her mothers dead body crying wailing like a child.

Her world finally crumbles. As both of her Light and Guide as now Resting in Peace together.

Pandemics ends and life must go on. She felt like she was a time ticking bomb, she always wanted to burst every time. Till the day came she tried to kill herself.

So many attempts have been made but she still survived. Some might not left such scars its not that bad either but her heart is still in turmoil. Shes mentally not alright as she I fighting her every day in her life. The Highschool Graduations came. The fact that her parents always want her to finish Highschool she felt proud and did not expect for herself to graduate as one of those with honors at school. Knowing she has an award she burst out crying the fact that her Parents show up as she is going to received the awards together with them. She felt bitter.

She was envious of her classmate whom who have their Parents with them in the stadium standing and receiving the awards. Her older sister was crying as they walked together in the stadium and her other sister was in the crowd watching her receiving her awards.

She felt crying and wanting to burst at the moment but she stops herself. Waning to enjoy her Graduation Day. After the Graduation she together with her siblings made there way in the cemetery. After arriving at her Mother & Fathers Tomb she burst out crying presenting the medals she received and diploma she got.