OKAY SO ITS GOTTEN TO THE POINT IN MY LIFE THAT THE FEELS ARENT OKAY AND THAT I REALIZED THAT SUMMER IS ACTUALLY REALLY DEPRESSING WHEN I WOULD SO MUCH RATHER BE AT SCHOOL LAUGHING AND HAVING FUN BECAUSE WHEN IM AT HOME I ONLY HAVE MUSIC AND WATTPAD AND ITS GOTTEN REALLY DEPRESSING BECAUSE IM SCARED TO GO OUTSIDE THAT ILL GET AN EVEN WORSE SUNBURN AND IM ALREADY CRISPY ROASTED AND I CANT EVEN GO ON SOCIAL MEDIA + CRAP WITHOUT REALIZING HOW MUCH FUN OTHER PEOPLE ARE HAVING AND IM JUST SITTING IN MY ROOM NOT EVEN ON MY PHONE BECAUSE IM SO CLASSY THAT I BROKE THE CORD AND I KEEP LISTENING TO THE SAME SONG OVER AND OVER AND MY HEART HURTS AND MY SKIN ACTUALLY HURTS BECAUSE IM LOOKING LIKE A CRISPY FRIED RASBERRY AND MY ACNE IS KILLING ME AND I WOULD SO MUCH RATHER BE AT THE POOL WITH MY FRIENDS LIKE I WAS BEFORE BUT MY PHONES DEAD AND WE CANT THROW ANOTHER PARTY AND IM SO ANGRY AT THE WORLD AND I JUST WANNA STAB SOMETHING BUT I CANT STAB SOMETHING BECAUSE EVEN THOUGH I WANT TO I CANT IM NOT THAT KIND OF PERSON AND I HAVE FEELS AND I DONT LIKE FEELS I WANNA LIGHT MYSELF ON FIRE AND ITS THE SUMMERTIME AND IN THE SUMMERTIME WITHOUT A WAY TO TALK TO ANYONE FRIENDSHIPS ARE LOST AND I FREAKING HATE THIS SO MUCH IT HURTS AND LIFE SUCKS AND PETER PAN NEVER GREW UP SO WHY SHOULD I
OH AND IF YOU THINK THIS RANT IS OVER ITS FAR FROM IT SO GET COMFY
THERES A LOTTA GRAMMATICAL ERRORS IN THIS SO IM SORRY FOR THAT BUT I NEED TO GET THIS STUFF OFF MY CHEST
IVE LEARNED THAT SOME BAD PAIN YOULL HAVE THAT YOU CANT PHYSICALLY MAKE YOUR BRAIN STOP FREAKING CREATING IS THE KIND THAT YOU HAVE NO PROOF FOR AND ITS KILLING ME ITS REALLY KILLING ME AND I JUST WANNA LAY IN BED AND EAT AND CRY BUT I CANT DO THAT BECAUSE I WANNA BE PRETTY FOR SCHOOL AND I WANNA BE NORMAL AND I WANNA HAVE MORE FRIENDS AND I WANNA STOP HURTING THE PEOPLE I LOVE WITHOUT REALIZING IT AND I WANNA BE A MUCH MUCH BETTER PERSON BUT ITS SO FREAKING HARD AND IT KILLS ME AND I CANT SLEEP AT NIGHT IM JUST SLOWLY DYING AND IT HURTS SO BAD AND NOTHING CAN NUMB IT AND I CANT STAND IT I JUST WANNA FLING MYSELF OFF A BRIDGE BUT I HAVE SO MANY GREAT FRIENDS THAT I WOULDNT LEAVE FOR A MILLION BUCKS SO IM JUST GONNA SIT IN MY HOUSE AND BE SAD AND BE JUST UGH
AND DONT EVEN GET ME STARTED ON WHY I HATE THE SUMMER I MEAN HELLO I GET THAT ITS HOT BUT I DONT NEED TO SEE THE BOTTOM OF YOUR BOOTY IN YOUR SHORTS I MEAN UGHHH
AND IM JUST SAD AND I WANNA LISTEN TO MUSIC AND SLEEP AND HAVE SOME FUN BUT I CANT SO I JUST LISTEN TO MUSIC THATS HAPPY AND I TRY TO BE HAPPY BUT I CANT BE HAPPY SO I THREW A PARTY AT A POOL AND ILL THROW MORE UNTIL THE PAIN IS GONE AND SO FAR THE PAIN ISNT GONE AND I HATE IT AND THE PAIN NEEDS TO BE GONE AND ITS LIKE THERES A HOLE IN MY SOUL AND I CANT FREAKING STAND IT GUYS I CANT FREAKING STAND IT AND ITS NOT EVEN A HOLE REALLY ITS LIKE SOMEONES HOLDING AN ICE CUBE ON THE SAME PLACE ON MY HEART AND ITS JUST FREEZING IT AND ITS SLOWLY BECOMING A FROZEN HEART
ELSA TOOK A POOP ON MY HEART SCREW YOU ELSA *grabs blowtorch
AND ITS RAINING AND ONE OF THE WORST THINGS WHEN YOURE SAD IS TO LOOK OUTSIDE AND SEE THE RAIN BECAUSE ITS LIKE THE SKY IS CRYING AND BEFORE YOU KNOW IT YOURE CRYING AND IT SUCKS AND THE SKY BEING SAD MAKES ME SAD AND IT PROBABLY MAKES EVERYONE ELSE SAD AND I HATE IT BECAUSE NOBODY DESERVES TO BE SAD I MEAN LIKE GO ON TUMBLR AND LOOK AT ALL THE DEPRESSED PEOPLE IT SUCKS SO JUST WATCH BOBS BURGERS AND BE HAPPY BUT BE CAREFUL BECAUSE THERES A LOT OF INNUENDOS AND TINA IS MY SPIRIT ANIMAL AND I LOVE IT AND LISTEN TO THE SONG THATS UP THERE BECAUSE IVE BEEN LISTENING TO IT ON REPEAT WHENEVER IM ON MY COMPUTER AND IT MAKES ME SAD BUT HAPPY BUT REALLY FREAKING SAD AFTER THAT BECAUSE I LISTEN TO THAT AND I REALIZE THAT I RELATE TO IT FAR TOO MUCH IN ONE WAY THATS KINDA GOOD BECAUSE IT MEANS I LIVED BUT THEN AGAIN (depressing quote time) IF I LIVED IT MEANS ILL DIE TOO AND I DONT WANNA DIE I WANNA KEEP LIVING BUT I HAVE LIVED AND YA KNOW WHAT? IT WAS FUN.
I JUST WANNA SLEEP AND WATCH DISNEY CARTOONS AND SMILE AGAIN BUT I CANT AND IT SUCKS BECAUSE MY LIFE WAS OKAY AND THEN PEOPLE WALKED INTO IT AND BEFORE I KNEW IT IT WAS SUMMER AND THEY HAD TO FREAKING WALK OUT OF IT BUT I KNOW THAT A LOT OF PEOPLE HAVE MUCH HARDER LIVES THAN I DO AND I GIVE THEM PERMISSION TO STAB ME ILL EVEN LET THEM PICK OUT THE KINFE BUT IM IN PAIN AND I NEED TO WHINE ABOUT IT AND IF I UPDATE THE BOOKS THEYLL ALL BE DEPRESSING SO EXPECT AN UPDATE ON THE ONE WHO LIED LIKE BE READY ITLL BE SAD TOO
bYE guys
