What Now?

Not so bad

I curl into a ball and set my alarm before falling asleep in tears. I wake up to the sound of my alarm and its bright as hell inside my room and i run into my bathroom. I take a shower and come out in a towel and my phone is still blowing up. I towel dry my hair and then i put on a blue romper with black toms. I let my hair fall down my back and then i grab a ponytail, putting it on my wrist just in case. I brush my teeth and then get all of the stuff that i can find and walk upstairs. I sit down next to Oscar and he smiles at me with strawberries hanging out of his mouth. I laugh and pile tapas and pancakes onto my plate ignoring my other brothers.

"Have a good day at school!" Oscar kisses my face before i put my plate in the sink.

"Thank you Oscar!" I smile at him before i get my stuff and head out the door.

I see Steven standing on the bus stop with a few other people. I turn away from him before he can see me staring and hop right into my car. I bump Demi Lovato's CD and i work on my tough face because the last few days i've been feeling the exact opposite. I pull up into the school parking lot and i park close to the doors. I get my stuff and get out as a few buses start to pull up. I walk into the building ignoring the looks through the bus windows and i see a few people. They look away from me and i keep on walking to my locker. A few girls are whispering until i get close to them and they say goodbye to each other, scurrying in the opposite direction of each other. I almost laugh at them until i realize that they are running from me. I walk into the cafeteria and there aren't that many people there so i go get a smoothie. The cafeteria fills up as the smoothie i being made and i stay facing it knowing a lot of people eyes are on me.

Once my smoothie is done I turn back around after i grab it looking for my usual table. I spot it and I see Diana, Julie, Haley and a few other of Julies friends at my table. I would walk over there and make them get up but i see Carlos walk into the cafeteria and head towards his soccer dudes table. I feel my hand tighten around my smoothie as i see him smile and joke around with his friends. I look around for a place to sit because i see people staring at me and i find my destination, The football players table. They'll harass me, make jokes and all that other shit but at least i know those dudes are just pervs. I walk through the people towards the tale and i see a few heads turn towards my old table because its just one over to the table i'm going to. I see Diana tense up a bit as she sees me coming ad i dont even crack a smile for the bitch. I grab a chair from the table and Julie stops her conversation and I move it over to the Jocks table.

"Hey, porn star!" a dude named, Emanuel smiles at me.

"Hey Little dick!" I drink my smoothie and they laugh.

"Really your picture was the highlight of my weekend," a boy named Travis eats his pizza.

"Thats sad, Your life must not be that interesting!" I shake my head and they laugh again.

"You have nice boobs!" a linemen, Lenin smiles at me.

"Thanks. I bet you have nice ones too!" I smile back at him and the table roars with laughter.

"Serious, you know how many people downloaded that damn picture?" a guy asks the table, i think his name is Todd.

"The kids who cant get some, girls, the kids who dont like me and the horny bastards like Ivan! So probably half the school!" I nudge The big black boy sitting next to me.

"I did download that picture! Not even gonna be boosie!" He laughs and i smile at him.

"It's okay. I think Julie knew what was gonna happen when she drugged me and Carlos took me in the room," I shrug at him and they look at me.

"Carlos is the one who took you into the room?" Another boy named James asks with his eyebrows raised.

"That fucking bitch! I cant believe he did that to you!" Ivan shakes his head looking over at his table.