Behind lost eyes

Day 30

An: sorry for a veryyyy late update.
I'll try to make sure I update sooner.

(Blake's P.O.V)
Dear journal,
I haven't seen her in the past four days. I asked her friends. I've asked other girls she talks to. I've got nothing. Im close to ripping my hair out. I need to see her. I need to know she's okay. I want to be near her. Man what has she done to me?... The day she found out the news of her mom. She fainted in my arms. I loved her being there but I hated to see all those tears. I had to carry her bridal style which was easier than I thought. I grabbed all her stuff and handed all of mine to my best friend Jake." Mr. Summers where do you think your going?", the teacher asked as I told my friend what do if I'm not back before the next bell rings. I turn with my angel in my arms and glared at the teacher." She needs to go home. I'll take her since she fell on me and I'm already standing. Is that fine mama?", I slightly growled through my teeth. She gave me a look but allowed me to move. I walked thinkomg of a way to make her mine. I used to hurt her which I now hold with a heavy heart. I want to protect her. She's so special but also vulnerable to her surroundings. I get to the office and I see her dad standing looking out a window." Excuse me sir?",I said inching closer proping her better in my arms. He turned and glared at me then his eyes softened when he looked at his daughter." Did she faint?", he asked softly touchimg her head. I nodded he walked out side. I follwed after him quickly." Are you Blake?", he questioned looking me. I nodded in. "I've beard of you...", he mumbled. We reached his car and he said a quiet thank you. I let her down in the passenger side and put her belt seat on. I was going to leave without pecking her on the cheek. I mumbled near her ear'please be okay' before I step back to look at her father staring at me." You care for her?", hr asked looking at me." Why wouldn't I? I mean I'm sure you know I used to.... Hurt her but I've been watching her for so long. I hate myself for hurting her. I just want to make up for it", I said looking at her and running my hand over her closed eyes to her tear stained cheeks. He nodded and drove off.... I haven't seen her since. I tried to get the office people to get me her contact information but they refused. I needed to know she was alright....