I need to get away. I can't cope with this, there's clingy, and then there's Jake.
" please don't go out tomorrow night. Please stay in with me. Please"
If I stay in ill go mad. I only agreed to be with him because I couldn't say no. I can't be in this relationship Any longer, it's not fair to him, he's not what I want, he never was. I stood up and stretched, heading to the kitchen ignoring his comment, knowing he was bound to follow me.
I moved to the sink, filling a glass with water and taking a long sip. I could feel his gaze burning into the back of my neck. It was now or never. I took a deep breath before turning to face him.
" you know, I. I."
He looked me straight in the face. I took him in, he was quite short, not particularly handsome and he had no personality. I had a dance teacher once, a Mr karl, who told me that in life your either a radiator or a drain, you drain people's life and energy or you give them life and energy. He was definitely a drain. He was boring, self absorbed and generally, a low life, I could see no future with him. And now was the tjme to tell him. I'm such a bitch...
" listen Jake, ive been feeling this for a while and, I don't, I don't know quite how to say it..." I said just as he cut in:
" if you say it, I'll say it back... I love you"
Shit just got real....
" no. No Jake, that wasn't what I was thinking at all. I want to split up. It's not you, it's me, I'm just not ready for this. I have my GCSES and everything, and you've got your BTEC. I'm just not feeling it anymore."
" please Chloe."
" no, ive, Ive made up my mind I think it's best if you go."
And with that he left. And so did what must have been a heavy weight on my shoulders. I felt as if I could breathe again.
I Lay on the couch and stared at the ceiling, the single life seemed perfect, exactly what the doctor ordered, and it would mean I could go out and tash on with someone at the party tomorrow night.
After about an hour or so I decided to check in on the group chat. My three best friends... Robin, Laura and Sophie. It was robin who was having the party, it was going to be mental. We had spent weeks planning it with a group of lads she met at some sort of group called crusaders or something. I had no idea how important the lads would become to me....
Robin was crazy for "the leader of the group " Tristan. He had helped her plan it, and she had been rushing on him for almost a year. I was determine go get the two together, they would be perfect for each other, they both loved parties, getting pissed and money! Laura however thought he was a massive knob and Sophie was certain he was gay. The group of lads consisted of Tristan, Tom, Finn, luke, zac and Leo. Together we formed s magic ten.
I went up to my bedroom to look over my outfit, a red crop top with long sleeves and a black leather skirt with tights and black converse. Not wearing heels would definitely be the right choice. I shut my blinds as mum and dad came home. I quickly said my goodnights to them before taking another look at the group chat, robin was making a big deal about kissing Tristan tomorrow, she had bought the mistletoe and it somehow came about that if I kissed Tom she would kiss Tristan. Tom ( or fat lesbian as he had been known since the previous summer) was still somewhat of a mystery to me. From what I and remember he was quite short, like Tristan and had an awful Justin Beiber hair cut, but then I hadn't seen him for several months so maybe he had changed? No. There was no way I would be getting off with him. Definitely not.
And with that, I turned off my light, turned off my phone and fell into a deep and peaceful sleep.....
