OC!Raviel x Yamitsu
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Is this a dream..
a nightmare..
..?
It makes my heart ache,, it hurts so much.
Have I been right to flee?..
Did I hold the right to.?
He held me so lovingly.. it felt so safe, so familiar..
Too familiar.
....he was not ..him.
I had no right to shatter his heart like this..
.it made me no better then.....him.
My skin itches, it burns, it is hurting..it is like a desease, like something I cannot get out..
A parasite..
He was a parasite..
Lives on deep inside my consciousness.. is this how I say it..? ..mind..
..my own mind.
Like a fire burning beneath my skin..
His touch was sweet yet dangerous,
He was not him, but..
In that moment I could not separate the two in my mind..
I felt safe... It made me wary..he..does not understand.
... ..
..
His eyes...
.his eyes.
Seeing him in front of me..
The question resting on my mind escaped my lips.. it slipped yet I felt like I almost could not breathe..
My limbs felt stiff..
Why, I didn't know.
Guilt..fear.
Excitement....
The familiar feeling returned slowly to the surface,, I felt afraid..
Why was he looking my way like that..
..was he not angry..?
Not...mad... upset..
I.. abandoned him.
The moments my focus resurfaces, he stands now right in front of me...
Did I not notice him inching closer..?
We now stood not further but couple of inches apart.. his eyes begged to meet mine, yet I turned them away, moving my gaze into another direction..
Maybe too guilty to meet his gaze..
My breath hitched as he raised his hand,, I closed my eyes shut.
.
.
.
.
With a gentle move, he placed his hand on under my chin, making me face him..
.
His eyes met mine..
..once again..
Those ruby red eyes...
My heart was racing..
Was I feeling sick..?
..
"You are as beautiful as the day I lost you..."
