You're all I need ~ Dimo

Chapter 3

Dimitri van den Bergh's Point of View

18th October 2023

TW: Swearwords

Yet another day with Players Championship. I was sat by a table waiting to play a match when I spotted my ex. Josh Payne. It's complicated isn't it? He is a really nice guy, and he didn't break my heart or cheat or something like that. I lied to him. I told him that I loved him back, and then we started dating. If I had been honest from the start things wouldn't had turned out this way, I'm sure of that. I remember the day clearly. The day after I broke up with him. I went to his house fearing that he would hurt himself. If I hadn't went to his house, he had been dead. I think he's gotten better now, but he seems way more isolated from people compared to back then. But I believe he entered Dan Dawson's program, which is a good start. I didn't see who he got paired with since I had been busy talking with Damon and Mike. I'm not sure if he got therapy or not, but I'm almost assuming he did since he really does seem way better now. Like I haven't seen him hurt himself. I was snapped out of the thoughts as I saw him step out into the rain. The rain was heavy and loud. He wasn't wearing a jacket, and he didn't have an umbrella either. He stopped walking and stared up on the sky. I stood up and walked closer to the exit. I noticed a smile on his face. "Josh! Get back inside. You'll be sick if you don't put on a jacket or something." I shouted worriedly at him. He kept looking away from me. "Why would you give a fuck?" he asked carelessly, clearly knowing I hate when he swore. "Josh! Just get in!" I shouted while moving slightly closer to him, yet still not entering the heavy rain.
Just then I saw it, he coughed out some blood and couldn't keep his balance.
I watched as he collpased on the ground. I panicked. I ran out in the rain, not giving it a thought that I'd get wet. "JOSH!!" I screamed looking at the seemingly lifeless body. I felt tears in my eyes, just like back then. It's almost 6 years ago... he hasn't changed at all. I could hear someone else running over to us. "We can still save him, just help me get him inside." someone said. I didn't have time to think, so I helped the guy get him back inside. When we got in I saw it was Connor Scutt. He quickly ran over to his table, grabbed his waterbottle and started pouring water into Josh' mouth. I was confused as to why he's pull that move. He noticed my confusion and began to explain. "I think he tried to kill himself by not drinking anything. I haven't seen him drink anything today at least. He also told me that he felt lightheaded and tired which are signs of dehydration." he said while wiping away some blood on the corner of Josh' mouth. "How did the two of you meet?" I asked. "Dawson's Program." he replied. That makes pretty good sense actually. "When did you find out he was... you know... suicidal and all that." I asked. "I found out he cut, on day one. And the suicide bit... just now." he replied. After a little while Josh woke up. His eyes were still closed but he seemed to realise his plan had failed, again. He hit the wall behind him and sighed loudly. "Why can't you just let me die?" he asked as he opened his eyes to look at me. "You might be my ex, but I still care about you!" I said. He rolled his eyes at me, but he smiled slightly. I know most of him just wanted to die, but I also know that he just wanted to be loved by someone again. I looked over at Connor. Hopefully he could be someone to care for Josh.