You're all I need ~ Dimo

Chapter 4

Dimitri van den Bergh's Point of View

18th October 2023

TW: Swearwords and suicide attempt

I was sat in the hotel room bed with Damon on the other side of me. He was mad at me. I know I probably should have told him that I have an ex, but I couldn't make myself explain what happened to Josh. Damon stared angrily at me. "Damo, let me explain." I begged. "Yeah go ahead, I just can't believe you never told me." he said sounding a bit annoyed. "You'll understand why I didn't tell you soon." I said. And I begun to explain.

9th December 2017. What a wonderful date it had been, for Josh at least. He was walking happily while I felt guilty before even breaking it to him. I stopped walking and Josh looked confusedly at me. "What's up?" he asked while smiling at his boyfriend. "Josh, I can't keep pretending, I'm not in love with you." I said knowing this would ruin him."What?" Josh asked having clearly heard what I said. "I said I don't love you." I said. Josh' smile stayed on his face despite the terrible ache he had in his heart. His eye twitched slightly and he started laughing a bit. He nodded and turned around. "Fine, we're over." Josh said as he started walking away.

"Wait so... you broke up with him?" Damon asked, interrupting my story. "Yes, now let me tell the rest." I said to the impatient Aussie. 

10th December 2017. I ran quickly, he had to get there in time. I rushed over to Josh' house and knocked frantically on the door. There was no response, was I too late? I tried opening the door, but to no avail. I tried finding another way in, and luckily found an open window. I crawled in and searched the house to find my ex-boyfriend. I made it to Josh' room and saw exactly what I had feared to see. "JOSH!!" I screamed kneeling down next to my almost dead ex-boyfriend. Tears were running down my face, I thought it was over. There was a huge and deep cut on Josh' stomach. The blood was everywhere. I quickly grabbed his phone and called an ambulance. Luckily they arrived fast enough.

I was panicked, I was so worried. What if? What if Josh was going to die? What if Josh is dead? Just then a doctor walked out. I looked worriedly up on the doctor. "Is he going to be alright?" I asked worriedly, just hoping he'd say that he was okay. "Yes, he will be much better very soon. You said he did this to himself, am I correct?" the docor asked. I nodded with a very sad expression on my face. "He might need therapy, although I highly doubt that he would want to do so." the doctor said. I nodded, completely agreeing with what the doctor said. "Doctor, I think it's best if I leave, he's not very fond of me at the moment. I wouldn't want him to hurt himself again if he sees me." I said, still constantly worried about Josh' well being. The doctor nodded understandingly. I proceeded to leave the hospital, and get back home. And I don't know what happened after that. 

"He tried to kill himself?" Damon asked now looking concerned. "Yeah, he always hurt himself, and he wanted to die, that's why I never told you." I replied. "I'm sorry." Damon apologized for being mad before. "It's fine." I said as we hugged.