Never Forever.

feeling scared.

  Khairiyat pucho,
Kabhi to kaifiyat pucho
Tumhare bin diwane ka ky haal he,

Parthvi pov.

We decide to watch a movie together, I feel like we are doing something wrong when dadu comes and talks to us, I thought that, what if we talk, what if we share our emotion rather than just walking away, so i thought to make a plan of watching a movie, it will do nothing but what if we make our bond more strong.

I was in the room, looking at rushee and ika, they were fighting about what movie we should watch, I smile looking at them, they are still kids, childishness are still in them, they are adults by only body.

Me bol rahi hu na, koi mil gaya dekhte he, ika fight with rushee, are nhi yr, ek jaadu he humare pass, or nhi dekhna mujhe, rushee defend and then they again started fighting, acha acha what about we watch "chhichhora" I suggest them and they immediately look at me with their lighten up eyes, yes it's a good movie rushee said and we agree to watch chhichhora.

After sometime, nakul and reyansh came with the projector and laptop, it was already midnight, so we could watch it and we were in a private room so no one would disturb us, we scattered the blankets on the ground and sat together, where rushee was on his bed.

Tum logo ne mujhe akela upar chod diya, he complained, chota bacha nhi he jo itna ro raha he, or hum yahi he, nakul shouted and he silently sat then, we started our movie and watched it.

The movie was going on when I went too indulge in the movie that i feel it was going on in our life, the scene when the  main character's son got admitted in the hospital as he did suicide because he was scared of being called a "loser", when the main character got to know about this, he decided to narrate his own story of college,where they were used to called " Loser" By thier hostlers, but his son didn't find all the story true, then he call up his friends to make him realize that " Your result doesn't decide whether you are loser or not but what matter is how much you have tried". And then the line hit me that the main character met with his friends after so many years and when they said " Kam me itna busy ho gaye ki, touch me hi rehna bhul gaye", I got overwhelmed by it and i look around.

They all were enjoying the movie, I don't know whether they are feeling same or not but i guess, sometimes we just have to move on from the things, and i guess its time and i have to let go of him, I look at reyansh and i guess he feel my gaze that he turn towards me and i nervously look around, I sigh and get up from there and went outside from back gate, they will not notice me as I was sitting behind.

I came out and look everywhere, it was peacefull and quite, I went out of the hospital and sat on the bench, it was dark but the moonlight was enough to let me see the around things, I was staring at sky when I feel someone presence and i notice a shadow, I started feeling anxious, I was about to walk away but it hold my hands and i yelped but got releif when I recognize his voice, it was reyansh, I turn around and sigh and look at him.

What are you doing here, you scared me, I said to him, folding my hands and he also folded his hand and said, I would also like to ask the same question, yaha ky kr rahi ho, movie adhi chod kar, I sigh listening to him, I was not feeling well so i came out, I said and he squint his eyes, without saying anything to anyone, he said again and I sigh as I don't want to argue with him, not now.

Reyansh, please leave, I don't want to talk now, I said irritating and he sigh and I was passing by him when he held my hand and said, kab tak? He asked and I couldn't understand what he was saying, kab tak yu bhagogi, at least talk to me, he said and i sigh and i freed myself and walked away but came again to him annoyed and said, ky bat karu batao, ky bat karni he tume batao, I yell and glare at him, I just want that you don't ignore me when I am there and talk to me because it matters to me, he said looking at my eyes, why does it matter to you, when it never matters to you back then, I ask and he look sadly and said, matter karti ho tum, humesha se krti ho, or me chahta hu ki tum mere sath raho, he said, I scoff and look at him, tum samajh nhi rahe ho,me tumhare sath nhi reh skti, i said frustrated and he ask, why?